roses - yoonmin

he doesnt know

                        dear diary,
yesterday mine and jimins "date" went pretty well. by well I mean I didnt talk for basically the whole time and didnt order anything. eventually he started asking me questions and I started to see the real point of this date. he asked me how many calories I was used to eating every day. I just shrugged as he shot more questions at me.
          he asked me things like if my parents were still together and if I had a good relationship with my father (after I told him my mother wasnt alive any more) I just shrugged again at that question. he couldnt know too much about me after all, I didnt know what he could do with all that information. he asked me to show him my arms. I'm lucky I dont self harm visibly. the only things on my arms were bruises that I got so easily now. anyways, after all of those questions, and me only answering them in nods, shrugs, and head-shaking. he finally asked for the check.
          I raced home after that and ran straight to my room. he wasnt home yet so I did some cleaning, hes not as violent if I do something like clean the house. and after I did that I went to my room where I am now.
               that was my day.
 
                  sincerely, yoongi
ps. 97.75 calories. I ate 97.75 calories today.