I can't find love. Nobody loves me. Not in a friend way, not in a relationship way, not in a family way. Yes I have friends and family but people lie. I am a very gullible person and so it's easy to trick me. I have been tricked so many times. Pretty much everyone who has told me they love me has left. They lied, stabbed me in the back. It's only a matter of time before everyone leaves me for good. I have had my heart broken many times and yet I still love, I still give my heart out. I don't know how long it's going to last though, it's been getting harder to trust people. I like four people but they don't like me. Neither of them do. I need to get rid of these feelings. I have been trying but I can't exactly just erase them like I used to I have let them go on for too long they won't go away. Three of them are new so I might still have some time to get rid of it but the other is too late it won't leave and it breaks my heart. My heart hurts. It hurts everytime I think about them, everytime I'm around them. Why can't love just leave me alone? Why must it hurt me every time? I am not going to love anyone again. It's for my own good and for others. I won't get hurt and neither will they. I can't find my soulmate. Maybe I don't have one. It's probably better that way so nobody will have to deal with me. I don't want to put anyone through that. I will never find love.
