TAINTED. GRUVIA

05.5*

*Just to clarify before more people get confused, every .5 chapter is from the past.

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私が忘れたい思い出 memories I want to forget;

Blue is the color of calmness.

It is the darkness of the sea to the light sky

It is the feel of fire, yet freezing cold.

Your blue ice, your penetrating stare

Your dark orbs, burning with desire.

I dedicate each shade of blue to you

With every darkness I remember my heart's ache.

The luminescence of blue

Our hearts are one, our sparks are true.

We are the color of blue.

Juvia 水

[one week after Gray's disappearance]

I've gotten tired of constantly waiting. It's been a week since Gray-sama disappeared without a word. He hasn't gone on a quest so where was he? The weirdest part was, nobody seemed to mind! Everyone carried on with their daily activities as if nothing happened.

I asked Natsu, Erza and Love Rival countless times, but they said that they had no idea. They didn't even seem concerned, and that bothered me. Did something happen between them before he disappeared? An argument or a fight? I even asked Macarov if Gray left the guild and he said that he was still part of the guild.

"What's wrong, Juvia?" Mirajane asked as I sat at the bar, head in my hands and feet kicking around impatiently.

"Juvia misses Gray-sama!" I pouted. "Juvia checked his house as well, but he wasn't there either...."

"Wow, she really is a stalker," Natsu snickered.

"Erza," Lucy sighed, lips forming a small frown. She tilted her head back slightly and let out an exhale after shooting Natsu a glare. "Tell her." She said to the red-head who was sharpening her katana at the bar table.

Erza sighed and rubbed her eyes, a solemn expression on her face. "Alright, alright," she mumbled and sat down next to me. But she didn't look at me once, she kept her eyes casted down and her lips in a tight, grim line. "Juvia, Gray joined Avatar."

And it all ended.

Lucy let out a gasp. "Erza!"

I didn't feel sad, nor angry, nor worried. I felt numb. Hollow. I felt like all my happiness was sucked out of me and ripped apart. Lies. They're all lies.

"Gray-sama would never betray us!" I explained, standing up.

Erza stood up and sighed. She looked at me, right in the eye. I could see sympathy, but none for Gray-sama. She put her hand on my shoulder and squeezed it gently. "Juvia..."

"Don't touch me!" I shrieked and pulled back, arms crossed across my chest protectively. What was I doing?

"Juvia, I understand your pain. We'll find hi-"

"Don't say that! Shut up! Just shut up!" I didn't realize I was crying until I had to stop to catch my breath. Why was I acting like this? This wasn't me. "If you're going to lie, don't say such a lie! Juvia knows you, Erza! If you were going to save him, you would've left a long time ago to find him!"