Therapy || m.c

Susan

Um btw Susan's character is played by sabrina carpenter. Yeah.

School was shit. Life is shit. I am shit.

What a perfect shitty life for a shitty girl.

I look at my self in the mirror and put on a jumper and skinny jeans. Or for me skinny jeans are basically the only jeans i have. I brushed my long blond hair. Staring at my self in the mirror reminded me of a dream i had. I couldnt stand my excuse for hair. I always got knotty and messy and ended up looking like a damn mop.

I found my self singing a song by pierce the veil. Hold on till may. This song is my soul. And those word came that relaxed my body and calmed my mind and then a there i felt free. As if my soul was one with the wind in autumn. It flowed through my ears. Those words

Darlin' you'll be okay

I melted.

When vic fuentes says those word, its paradise. I wish i could stay here forever but the feeling will soon fade away. Like all of the people i have met.

"Sue come down" my foster parent says as she knocks the door "breakfast is ready"

"Athene im not very hungry. Im going to skip it and leave."

"oh come on its eggs and bacon"

"You ive never had bacon and never will because its part of a pigs butt"

"whats your problem with eating food" she said looking at my confused "you always have a reason to not eat!"

She left slamming the door. Loudly. I can hear her talking to one of the employes in the foster home.

"She is so annoying" athene says putting ampethising the annoying.

"Why cant she just get adopted already. Shes been here for 15 YEARS. Leave already you emo shit, better yet. Kill yourself"

I words hit me like the wave crash on the warm sand. Hard and salty. Sour. She was right, after the incident when was about 2 or 3 ,i came here. I was adopted but was always returned because they said i was 'too shy' or 'too self kept' and just like that i was returned like a fucking toy that a child didnt like. I was garbage. No one and nobody will ever love me.

I missed being so naïve when i was 4 and thinking that i would have a prince charming and he would save me from the foster home. Of course when i got older i got quiter and never really went outside unless it was for therapy or school. Orphans go to school too. Most of the time they are schooled at the foster home but my therapist said it would be better if i went to public school in the town so i could become social and make friend but it was completely opposite. I became more self preservative and got bullied. I didnt tell anyone i got bullied though.

Its been 3 years i cant take it. Maybe i should kill myself. No one would miss me anyways.

I was afraid.

After i relooked my past for a while i finally put on a sweater over my jumper and walked to my school.

This was the easiest morning ever compared to other days.

This was my fucked up life.

That was Susan. I know i know. Is Sabrina a good Susan or should her actor be changed or something. Idk. Oh yeah but this was Susan. What should her last name be :3 suggestions plz.

Mkay bye tacitos

-the 5sos taco turtle