Broken Boy

I Talk to Deaddies?

"I did not!" I yell standing up.

I look at him. his pants were almost pulled off.

"madison, you and I both know you were the one that always raped Kyle." I said tearing up.

"he deserved so much. so much better. than anyone." I say holding his hand.

"well, I guess you don't know much, do you?" madison said walking to her room.

"oh marrie, you don't need to lie. we all make mistakes. but this one may haunt you. even when you're 80." myrtle said walking up to me stroking the hair that framed my face.

kyle used to do that.

since he used to do that, it made me squirm. "I-I-I gotta go." I said walking to the bathroom.

I opened the door and ran to the toilet. I threw up.

"marrie, why don't you just save him?" madison said holding my hand.

"he didn't w-want to be save-" then more puke fell out.

"it doesn't matter!" madison said.

"you and I need him. maybe they are for totally different things. but. you're happy with him right? with what you guys do together?" madison said patting my back.

I nodded my head. "he hates his life, madison!" I say turning around to her.

"fine. then i'll bring him back. besides, I'm for sure the next supreme." she said narrowing her eyes on me.

my stomach dropped.

"I don't think you're the next supreme." I say standing up.

"oh please! you couldn't take one death. who cares if it was your little toy boy!" madison said twirling her hair.

"he's more than that. he's better than that. he's not just a "toy boy." he is so so so much more worthy." I said crossing my arms.

"besides, at least he actually loved me." I said walking past her as my shoulder bumped into hers. then, I used my telekinesis to shut the lights off in the bathroom, and flush the toilet.

I wanted to save him even though he said not to. being dead's not the answer. did he think that, I was mad at him? course not!

I hated madison with all my heart, just, cordelia said to try to get along with her. so, I did.

i could care less if kyle actually chocked madison, really.

but, sadly, he took this the wrong way. kyle wasn't some "toy boy" or some "broken boy" either.

him and madison's love was raw. same with zoe. I mean, he could have really loved zoe, but it seemed he loved me too.

our relation ship together, was...sweet. I wanted to build a family with kyle. the biggest reason why I love kyle, was because, he understood me. like no other.

I wanted to build a amazing family and life with kyle and still do. I have to bring him back. we will both be happier that way, besides, I'll tell him he miss understood me.

he'll believe that. right?

the thought of people thinking I killed him was pure raw. I would never kill him to this day, or ever. he was my everything. he was the only one who listed to me, who understood me, who treaded me perfect, I just can't put in words how much I miss him. I mean, people would really think I marrie who's genuinely in love with kyle would do that?

it's so hard to picture me raping him, or having sex with him without his permission first. I mean, I would ask him right on the spot if he's ready. who cares if that would be awkward.

he wasn't just a broken boy, he was a LOT more than that. a lot more.

I walked in my room where we slept. I walked up to his body.

"you were a nice guy. you loved video games, food, cooking, and hanging out with me." I say holding his hand.

"is this how you felt when you thought I was dead? alone, depressed." I say, thinking he may hear me because when I passed out, I could hear him. but dying is different from passing out.

"you know, you were learning so so so so much more every day! you're so smart. and so amazing." I say breaking down crying as I play with his hair.

"I want to bring you back. so bad." I say smiling.

"I didn't care if you chocked her. cordelia said to get along more. now look at you." I say i'm a giggle, as I ball.

"talking to deaddies now?" madison said sucking on a lollipop.

"why don't you care at all?" I ask pushing hair back, that fell over my cheeks. "after all you did?"

"what are you talking about?" she said twirling the pop.

"you know madison! after raping him, trying to get him away from me." I said tearing up.

"ugh, get over it!" madison said rolling her eyes.

I look at his body. I put my hands softly over the bruises held on him. I pull his pants back up, that was from madison trying to pull them down.

"you are so great." I whisper in his ear.

I look at the note across the bed. then I sniff.

"I-I-I wanted to build a family with you." I say smiling, as I bust down crying.

then, out of no where, he woke up with the biggest gasp ever. blood was still gushing out of both his wrists, and his neck.

"kyle?" I say crying.