The story of Momo (Yami Kawaii) (suicide and mental health awareness)

how's life?

*I should get out of bed that would be smart it's only Tuesday I can't be this tired already*

"MOMO!!! I've already told you twice to get up. Get your ass to school before you are late." -mom

"Yes ma'am"

Momo sits up and looks at the wall.

*do I really even need to get out of bed? Why am I even doing this anymore? What's the point? . .  . NO MOMO come on no bad thoughts! LET'S DO THIS!*

The usual daily wake up and get to school on time had been becoming more of a chore for Momo. She often felt like there wasn't a point to waking up but she had to keep making her family proud. She needed them yo be proud. If she couldn't do that was she even worth anything to them? She often dismissed these thoughts but they were getting harder to ignore.  Her walk to school once a short walk with friends now became a endless journey with nothing but thoughts and ideas. Not waking early enough to walk with friends she goes alone which made the thoughts louder as they rang through her mind. Today the thoughts had been so loud she hardly noticed she almost walked in front of a moving car.

*wow . . . I . . . I almost died. Why am I not afraid? That car almost hit me and I feel fine if not . . . Disappointed? . . I can't deal with this right now I'm sure it's nothing just shock.*

No matter how hard she tried she couldn't understand why she felt that way. But she decided to ignore it and focus on her goals she had to do well she had to make a good name for herself and her family. She knew if she failed she would disappoint everyone.

"Hey Momo!" -amy

"Hi Amy! Sorry if I'm a little late today had a small issue on my way to school."

"It's okay everyone else is already inside let's go."

As they walked into the school she pushed the thoughts out of her mind. She's been known to be the happy friend and the one who brightens the day. She would never let her smile fall not infront of anyone not even her own mother. Her mother was the one she was the most afraid of knowing her thoughts or emotions. Her friends can never know het thoughts. After all they are just thoughts they can't hurt her. Can they?