Hi, im (Y/N) (L/N) and im whats known as a "Teenage Heartbreak Queen". I go around my highschool breaking little hearts. But one day, I met someone who I couldn't break their heart. He was all I have ever wanted. But I couldn't bring up the courage...
This chapter will have another self harm trigger. Skip over it if you are sensitive to the topic.
I wake up in the middle of the night feeling, different. I knew what it was, my body was gonna let my depression take over. Wonderful... I quietly move out of the bunk going to sit somwhere alone. I end up sitting in the bathroom. I look around a bit before finding a small pair of scissors. I wipe away a tear as I cut my inner thigh. Bad thoughs go through my mind as I slash many cuts into my thigh. I clean off the scissors as I clean my bloody wounds. I wrap my leg in some gause and grab a pair of sweatpants to cover it. I walk out of the bathroom and go hang out in the "living space" I wipe my still existent tears humming "Death Dance" Brooklyn comes over "Hey, whats wrong?" She whispers I shake my head "N-Nothing im fine." I give her a fake smile "(Y/N) dont lie I heard you crying in the bathroom. Whats wrong?" She sits next to me. I just lay my head on her shoulder crying as I move my sweatpants and gause. She squints and sighs "Shhhhh its gonna be okay. Doing that isnt gonna help though. Come to me when this is tempting okay?" She calms me a bit I nod "Im sorry..." "Don't be sorry. It happens now, you'll need to show Em. You can't hide this from him okay?" I look down and my still bleeding thigh and nod. "Alright. Well im gonna go back to sleep. You should too. Goodnight (Y/N)" she says and walks to Rems and her bunk. I end up falling back asleep on the couch ~Timeskip~ I wake up to hear Em trying to get me up. "Babe its time to get up" I open my eyes and feel my thigh throbing in pain I grit my teeth "I need to show you something again. And you can't tell anyone. The only other person who knows is Brooklyn" He nods and sits down. I move my shaking hand to my sweatpants and move them showing the now scab making cuts. His eyes look straight at them and then back at me. He engulfs me into a huge hug and I cry into his shoulder. "Im sorry Emerson..." I manage to say while sobbing "No. Dont be. Its gonna be okay (Y/N)" He said while his voice was shaky. I pull away from the hug and kiss him lightly. He kisses back and after a minute he pulls away keeping our foreheads together "I love you (Y/N) and we're gonna work through this together. I promise that you'll get better. It will take a while but it'll be worth it." he says solumly "I love you too Emerson and Ill do my best to not do it again." I move our heads away and wipe my tears. "Now you go get ready to put on a show for people who love you" I say He nods "Yes Ma'am." He walks off to the back and starts to get ready. Emerson has always made me feel better after depression decides to take up my whole mind. I smile and grabbed my suitcase looking for an outfit. I end up finding
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I quickly get dressed and put on the classic Payale Royale make-up. Em comes over to me and smirks "Damn you look good." I blush "shut up and let me do your makeup" He sits down "Demanding are we?" "Horny are you?" I roll my eyes as I start to do his make-up. "Nah im just playing. You do look amazing though." He said "Oh my god Emerson stappp" I whine "Okay okay ill stop." He laughs and lets you finish. After a few minutes I finish with Emersons and Rem comes over "Help me. Brooklyn's out still so help." He said. "Give me five bucks and then Ill do it." I put my hand out. He sighs and gives me a five dollar bill. I put it in my pocket and then do his. When I was finished Brooklyn was awake and getting ready as fast as she could. But in the end she looked really good. The tour bus stops and we get off the bus going to the state where they would be performing. They get set up and do a sound check before everybody started coming into the area. They all go backstage and wait before Emerson runs on stage waving and smiling. Next went Sebastian with his guitar and finally Remington. The croud going wild, they started playing "Mr. Doctor Man" I stand in the back singing along and watching them, mostly Emerson though. They announce that their playing my favorite song, "All My Friends". Emerson looks over at me and smiles. Rem sings and goes over to Emerson. They whisper something before Remington nods and Em gets up coming over to me "Come with me" he says. My eyes widen as he drags me on stage "Everyone meet (Y/N), my baby brothers girlfriend!" Remington says into the mic. Most people go wild but all I noticed was the stank eyed people. Emerson grabs my hand with a smile "Shes gonna be singing this song with me" Rem says bringing me up to the front with him as Em goes back to his drums. One of the tour managers grabs me a microphone and the music starts. Remington startd singing and then not long after I get comfortable and start singing too. Em looks at me smiling the whole time. After the song finishes Rem says "Fuck (Y/N) you're really good at sinnging. Everybody give it up for (Y/N)!" Mostly everyone cheers as I walk off stage with a smile. ~Timekip Sponsored by Remington Climbing~ We we're sitting in the living area getting trashed. The only person who didn't drink was Daniel. He just sat there watching his boyfriend and the rest of us trash our livers. Oh well, you only live once. We play music and party like a bunch of collage kids. Once it was around 1 am we all fall asleep. I just can't wait to have the rest of the week with Emerson while we both get to do something we both love. ----------------------- 1070 words!!! Holy shit im proud of myself. Its almost 1:30 but fuck sleep lolm anyways love you guys -Gabby <3
