Wow can't believe I got to 7 chapters
Also trigger warning?
Alaska's POV
Everything was white.nothing else but white.It looked like the light was shifting,trying to form shapes and color,but there was nothing to reflect.
"You fucked up." They voice said from above.
" you're a failure,you disappoint me.
I heard footsteps coming towards me.a black silhouette,no light.
"You seem like you struggle with simple tasks.you can do anything right.You can't do anything without freaking out."
" look where you are now. "
"I don't know where I am" I told the figure
"Sad.If you can't figure out you're place then why be anywhere at all?"
It taunted me
"Stop"
"You're worthless,no one wants an invalid item."
" I am not an item. "
"Need I remind you of the past? The reason you don't trust anyone? The reason you shouldn't trust anyone?"
" Please don't"
"Well too bad."
The white turned into a brick apartment. It was the one my girlfriend used to live in.And then I saw me,sitting on the couch,crying,while my girlfriend (at the time) yelled at me. Saying I was worthless,completely useless,that I'm nothing. She wanted to sell me to make some money,but she got mad because I didn't want to be sold. I couldn't leave either. She had pinned me up against a wall and choked me almost to death. If there wasn't a candle in the table I could've died. But instead her life was taken.I took someone's life. I'm nothing but a cold hard killer.
"That's when it started my dear. "
I looked at the shadow.
"At the young age of 14. And you haven't been any luckier since,everyone you love dies."
She continued.
"But they were all bad. Sharon 's not bad"
"I wouldn't be too sure about that."
" What? What do you mean? Tell me. Please. "
The vision faded and I woke up.
My vision was blurred,but I recognized the clinic and Sharon,waiting in the chair.
I had though for a moment,about my dream. The only think I felt I could do was cry.
"Alaska! You're awake! Why are you crying?"
Sharon ran over to me.
"I can't love you." I cried .
"What why?"
" I can't! "
"Alaska,it's okay,I love you."
" No it's not! You're going to die if I love you! "
"What do you mean?"
" I explained to her my dream. "
"Alaska,you are not any of those things,I promise you."
" But I am Sharon! I have killed people,that is something I will never come to terms with. I have ended lives. "
"Alaska stop. I have had to do the same thing and also the people you killed were bad."
" But I loved them all! "
"Alaska,you didn't mean for this to-"
"GET OUT!!"
I yelled at
"GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT!"
" Alaska cal-"
"OUT!"
I picked up a book and threw it at her,she ducked to avoid it and quickly left the room.
I was alone,but then I felt guilty.
