In Love With My Best Friend

sexing it up

It was saturday. Not much had changed. Last night the batch and Mikey went to watch bohemian rhapsody which was great, by the way and went to Witching Hour to digest and talk while drinking the BEST coffee ever. Mikey was acting weird but i don't know why. Kenzie noticed as well "everything okay Mikey?" no. "i have a tinder date tonight and were meeting here in like 40 minuets, I'm not stressed or anything, i just have never used tinder before so i don't know what to expect, you know" everyone nods and laughs like they understand, i smile "wow, whats their name?" maybe we will find out his sexuality "Rylee" never mind. still couldn't tell if its a boy or girl. the batch hung out for a couple of hours talking and drinking more coffee than what should be physically possible. Mikey meets up with the girl, they leave, to have sex i assume.

Its early in the morning, about 7am. i message Mikey

to: Mikey

u up?

to: Oliver

barely, whats up?

to: Mikey

going for run, join?

to: Oliver

(bee emoji) there in 5

i think this will be a good opportunity to catch up with him and talk about how his date went last night.

"so, how was Rylee?" we've been running for 5 minutes but haven't really spoken much "she was good, turns out she is into friends, so we stayed up watching that for most of the night" most of the night. Thats what stuck in my head. Most of the night, what does that even mean? "Oh, sounds like fun" we chit chat for the next 40 minutes until we reach his house, he goes inside and i run back to my house.

i don't understand why i feel jealous? i think. Do i wish that i had been on a date with Rylee? Do i wish i had been on a date with Mikey? No, Im not gay. Maybe I'm gay.

Its currently 10:30pm, and my day was filled with revision for my SAC in psychology on tuesday. Now that i have finished studying for the day, i'm downloading tinder.

Mikey seems so confident in himself and who he is, maybe if i do more things that he does, i can figure out myself.

Connect with Facebook, one click that is so easy. it says I'm 18 but thats only almost just a year off, besides I'm not here for a relationship. I. Want. Sex.

thats right. the way i see it, if i lose my virginity i will appear different, even if nobody knows.

so i have to write a bio... this will be the hardest part... "sex?" no. "the only thing that pulls out is my futon" Hard No. "not here for a long time, just a good time." it'll do. It says fuckboy, but also knows what he wants. My mum left this morning for a conference in Sydney, i don't think i ever explained that she is a doctor, so she has to speak at this conference and she is taking a couple of extra days to visit the Sydney Children's Hospital, as she has a patient there from a couple of months ago that transferred. Anyway, my point is, i can invite anyone over as my baby brother and my sister are staying at my nan and pops, and i have the house to myself.

i start swiping, right for yes, left for no. Im only swiping on girls who are not super attractive, or don't look like they know they're attractive, after all i have my own body insecurities to worry about, like is my penis too average?

A girl named Lily is coming over in 15 minutes. its currently 10:45pm and i have 15 minutes to shower, thats what people do before sex right? i don't want my penis to smell bad or anything.

i quickly wash my downstairs area as well as under my arms to ensure i am fresh for tonights endeavours. she only lives a couple of blocks down so she should be here any minute.

the doorbell rings. I'm trying not to sweat but my heart is beating really fast and I'm a little bit nervous. "Lily, hey" i say giving her a welcoming hug trying to appear confident "hey Oliver, i like your house" this is it, its actually happening. No more uncertainties, after this i will have answered so many questions "thank you, let me show you around" i made sure my room was the last room i showed her to, that way we could stay in here and 'hang out'. we sat on my bed side-by-side until the awkward silence became to much and she turned her head to look at me. I then turned my head in response and our lips collided. Now this wasn't my FIRST kiss..... technically. When i was 10 i kissed Alison Smith behind the shed at primary school, as a dare. Its not that i haven't wanted to kiss anyone though, its that i haven't had the right opportunities, i feel like girls don't look at me like that. 

Now, Lily is leaning closer to me and we lye down on the bed. Her hand, which was sitting on the band of my jeans was lowering itself towards my now growing cock, i needed to get out of these jeans. just as i was thinking that, her hot breath whispered in my ear "wow Oliver, you're so hard" this made me even harder and she started to unbutton my jeans for me. before she pulled off my pants, we took our tops off, her bra looked delicate and complicated and fitted over her breasts perfectly. she kissed down my stomach until she reached the band of my underwear. She took off my pants and my underwear at the same time, releasing my throbbing erection, she looked surprised "wow, you're huge" thats a good thing right? i let out a soft moan as her tongue touches the tip of my dick and tilt my head back when her mouth takes me in fully. she moans on my erection, the vibrations turning me on even more, just when i think I'm about to cum she stops, and looks up and me seductively. She takes off her bra and throws it on the floor, then pulls down her underwear and steps out of them one leg at a time. I move further up the bed, so now my legs aren't hanging off the edge and she crawls on top of me, positioning herself on top of my penis and then lets me enter her. Her tight walls surrounding my throbbing erection makes me moan in pleasure. I gain confidence and flip her onto her back, i'm on the top now. I'm thrusting myself into her and she is saying "faster, faster" i listen and obey going as fast as i can "I'm gonna cum" i admit breathlessly and within 10 seconds of saying that, i orgasm. i lift myself off of her and lay on the bed out of breath. 

After about five minutes she sits up and gets dress and says "well, i have to get home, i left my baby sister with my younger brother" and with that, i walk her down stairs and let her out of the house.

what just happened was interesting. Very interesting.

i thought i would be more interested in her body, but most of the time i had my eyes closed imagining someone else... imagining him. Oh My God. I think I might be gay.