I've been feeling this for a week?? I cant remember anymore. I feel like I do not belong to any group . And maybe the reason I'm in the "group" is beacause of jb and jd, cy is with me because shes my dorm mate and all of them are coping up and here I am stuck and dont know what to do. I really do not like when Im alone because Im realising a lot of this or I'm just over thinking? Maybe the reason jus is more close to her is because Im annoying or something is off about me? Am I boastful? irritating? clingy? Or maarte? malandi? Is my personality really that bad?
I failed the nmat AGAIN!! Also my grades are failing, is med school really not for me? I feel like all of my friends are doing good now. And again here I am a failure. Im not like this before, I can actually do good when I want to but now, even I want to their is nothing..... before I dont care if Im being left behind or speaking to others by my friends but now Im so paranoid that one day I will wake up lose ALL of them. Now is SO different and I cant explain it.
