I fell in love with you too. I love you so fucking much. I fucking hate myself for not saying it sooner.
Shit the fucking keys are soaked.I guess I cried more than I thought when I read you're letters or whatever they would be called. I mean how would I not look into your porn folder when I know for a fact you fucking hide that shit in your folder called totally not porn. I mean honestly you're such an idiot and I wish I could tell you that to your face.
It's your fucking funeral today, but you know I hate shit like that. So instead I decided to sneak into your bedroom. If you were still here you would call me a creep and then give me a lecture about cursing. Honestly if you did that right now I would neve curse again.
God why the fuck did I pause. You're gone and shit what the fuck am I supposed to do without you. Hell even now im doing what you hate just in cas it somehow brings you back. You're the only person I've ever truly loved in this shitty world. Now you're gone and how the fuck am I gonna live without you Elli.
Fuck my life. Fuck everything. I would give it all just to see you again. I love you. I fucking love you.
Elliott I love you. I was going to say goodbye, but if I do that then you're truly gone so instead you're gonna have to deal without.
Eternally yours, Derrick
