It's Whateva

Different Point Of Views

Michael's P.O.V

I watched Bella's face go from confusion to realization and finally to panic. Not being able to take her stare any longer, I closed my eyes and just let the tears that was threatening to spill from my eyes fall before holding my head back down.

The air around us became even more thick with awkwardness, something that has grown to be normal between us...something I hated.

I opened my eyes back to see Bella's feet were shuffling against each other and sighed...she was nervous, but how could I blame her? I did this to us. I tainted the trust and faith she had in me. ME! I looked up and saw Bella looking down at her fingers and chipping the polish off and sighed.

Bella suddenly looked at me and opened her mouth a few times; trying to get out whatever it is that was on her mind. I cocked my head to the side, waiting for any questions she had. After a few minutes of debating with herself, she finally took a few deep breaths and asked me something.

"When did you remember? How much do you remem-" I wiped my hands over my face and cleared my throat.

"Everything. I remember everything from the night. From leaving the party, going to your house...finding the bottle in the kitchen...everything." I mumbled the last part and looked away when her eyes met mine; too ashamed to meet her stare.

"It was the night I came to get Mya...Khalid refused to get her because he said we needed to talk...I needed to face the music and stop being a little bitch. When you opened up to me and told me how you felt. When I got home and got Mya settled...I fell asleep on the couch...like I've been doing since we...we uh...been apart...." I glanced over at her to see she was listening intently and let my eyes fall back to her feet.

"I had this crazy dream. You were screaming and reaching for me...someone was hurting you...everything around us was black and I kept trying to get to you, but something was holding me back. Someone was holding my arms and I couldn't get to you...out of nowhere a hand covered your mouth and the person came out of the shadows...it was me. I looked behind me and the person who was holding me...was me." I took a deep breath and flinched a bit when I felt Bella's hand on my shoulder. She moved it back, but once I realized what was going on, she eased her hand back on my shoulder and started to rub it.

"I woke up trying to figure out what the fuck the dream meant...I mean I knew, but why was it like that...you were in danger and I was literally holding myself back from saving you...I started to think about what you said I did and at like once...everything came back to me...I haven't slept a full night since...hell I barely sleep at all because up until a few hours ago...whenever I find myself fall asleep...that dream haunts me or the images of your face...haunts me." I rubbed my nose and sniffed while clearing my throat.

Bella stood in front of me and I looked away, but she grabbed my face and forced me to look at her.

"You made a mistake...a big one, but a mistake-" I shook my head and pulled away from her grip.

"I'm suppose to protect you The both...all three of you! I let my emotions get the best of me and look what happened! I stayed away because...what good am I to you...to Mya...to our unborn-" Bella huffed and tried to grab my face again, but I pulled away.

"You do protect us! Michael you can't second guess yourself now! We need you, this child in me needs you! What if something or someone dangerous comes along-" I hopped down off of the counter and not meaning to; screamed at her.

"I'M DANGEROUS!" Bella jumped back and I searched her eyes to see if she understood where I'm coming from; what I was saying. Bella bit down on her bottom lip and looked away.