Now, I usually dont yell due to the fact that I find it stressful and it just doesnt do any good.
But because I've bottled my feelings for quite some time now, I just need to get some out.
So.
Stop reading if you dont want to listen to a rant that is typed in caps lock.
IF YOU WERENT HAPPY IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE THEN WHY DID YOU STAY FOR SO DAMN LONG??!!
IT FUCKING HURTS
IT HURTS EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY KNOWING THAT FOR SOME REASON YOURE HAPPIER WITHOUT ME!
I TRY SO HARD TO BE BETTER EVERY DAMN TIME BUT I ALWAYS MESS UP!!!
IM FUCKING DONE WITH BELIEVING IN FATE AND DESTINY BECAUSE IF THAT EXITSTS WE WOULD HAVE NEVER MET!!
PEOPLE WHO WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER ARE ALWAYS HAPPY!
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK EVER HAPPENED TO MY HAPPILY EVER AFTER?!?!
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY DISNEY PRINCESS LIFE WITH THE PRINCE IF MY DREAMS?!?!
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY HAPPINESS?!!!!
YOU SAID I WOULD BE HAPPY WHILE YOU SAT ALONE AND BROKEN BUT LOOK WHERE WE ARE! I CANT STOP CRYING AND STALKING ALL OF YOUR SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS AND I CANT STOO CRYING WHILE LOOKING OVER ALL THE OLD PHOTOS OF YOU WHILE YOURE OVER THERE HAVING A GRAND OL FUCKING TIME WITH YOUR PALS!!!
WHAT WORSE IS THAT I DONT EVEN HATE YOU!!
MY HEART FOR SOME REASON IS UNABLE TO HATE YOU!
I WANT TO! I WANT TO HATE YOU SO BADLY!
BUT I JUST FUCKING CANT!
LOVE IS THE MOST BARBARIC THING IVE EVER HAD TO FUCKING DEAL WITH AND I SWEAR IM REACHING MY LIMIT.
I HAVE FUCKED UP A LOT IF THINGS IN MY LIFE!!
MAYBE THATS WHY YOU LEFT! MAYBE THATS WHY MY PARENTS HATE ME! MAYBE THATS WHY ALL MY FRIENDS DITCHED ME!
BECAUSE IM SUCH A FUCKING MISTAKE!
I WISH I WAS NEVER FUCKING BORN!!!!!!!!
