Cigarettes .

Part V .

We bought coffees and we decided to sit on one of the benches, and for my luck , as soon as I sat my pants got dirty, i was the first to sit and the first to embarrass herself , Khalid laughed and Shadow joined him , I glared at them , and immediately rushed to the bathroom.
I'm such a clumsy girl indeed . I found a girl who tried to help me fix the mess I made and we managed to clean my pants, I took the chance to fix my makeup and took a deep breath and went back to the battlefield .
To someone as dramatic as me , I took the reappearance of my old feelings to shadow as unquestionable and impossible.
To me it was more as a war against myself
Because he didn't even know I exist before today .
Well deep down, I kind of thought he knew about me , I thought maybe just maybe all the signs he showed back in high school were not all in my head. 
But well .. it was all in my head .
Imagination is my strongest quality.
I went back , Khalid asked if everything was okay , and I asked them if we can leave .
So Khalid suggestion after the half an hour we spent in our new university, is if  we can go grab a bite .
We agreed , we took a cab to down town and I went with the boys to the ATM, after that we decided on burgers, we settled on a table , we ate , most of the time , Khalid run the conversation, and most the time anything Shadow's says , I bitch about , making a very rude remark .
I was rudeness at it's best .
I can see the questions in their eyes
And why I'm behaving like this and in such a manner , I didn't leave an opportunity pass by to make a rude comment to shadow about literally anything.
I wanted him , to hate me and to stay the hell away from me , I didn't even want us to be friends , because deep down I wanted us to be more, but that was along time ago .
And since it's not even possible, I didn't even want to be friends with him.
I wanted to make a bad impression .
And I certainly did .
Through the conversation, Khalid told us that he will not go back to uni untill the next two weeks ..

" And  are you going back ?" Shadow asked me .

" Yes I want to go back , I don't have anything to do , and my parents think I started today , how about you ? "

" if you want , we can go together "

He just asked me if we can go together As in a pair , as me and him alone , is god prankin me ?
I'm about to figure out .

" Yeah , sure , how I'm going to contact you though?"

" Well we can exchange our numbers!"

Damn it , I wanted him to say Facebook accounts, in hopes of maybe having a conversation but sharing numbers is more appropriate I think .

" Yeah , sure "

We exchanged numbers.
And we took off to the train station.
I run back home in disbelief of what happened today .
I immediately called my cousin ,
Lux  is 4 years younger than me , but she's very mature , we grew up together and she literally knows my darkest secrets along with my other cousin Gravity which is 6 years younger than me , but if you look at her , you'll tell me that she is 6 years older than me .

"  Hi Lux , "

"What's up girl , how are you doing ?"

" Everything is okay , and you ?"

"What's the deal Hazel , spit it out, i know you're not calling me just to chitchat!"

" I didn't want to call you the other day  , because honestly i didn't know what to say , and I didn't want to make a big deal out of it , because I don't care , but guess who I've met today ?"

" Who ? "

" I said guess !"

" Tell me who !"