heart broken with his baby

chapter 9

lillah's POV

2 weeks later...

The boys are growing really fast for my dislike. I want my babies to still be babies but I know they will have to grow up and learn the truth one day. However, I will not ban them from meeting their father if they want however I promise to murder him if he ever does anything to my angels.

It's been two weeks since I have been having the thoughts of having Becky and her mate adopt my angels but my heart won't allow me even with no wolf soul now (and thank God that I haven't gone rogue) I can't abandon my angels.
Lately, I am grateful to only have dreamless nights as I finally have a break from all the nightmares.
Waking up to my angels calling my name will never be a burden to me as I never had that sort of thing with 2 mothers I promise to give experiences I never had as a child because they deserve it and so much more.

I throw the covers to one side and stretch as I approach the door to my babies room where I hear a whimper.
I hurriedly walk inside to caress my first angel zee he has been teething recently and it breaks my heart hearing his whimpers. I turn to the tablet next to zee's tablet and pick up his teething toy to which he gladly takes and starts chewing on it.
Thank god for products like this.
I set zee on his changing tablet and change his diaper once I am done I set him back in his crib and turn to look for Eli to find him fast asleep looking so adorable.
I bend down closer to his face and lightly kiss his forehead.
After that I look over to double check on zee to see him wide awake, I pick him up and carry him to the kitchen where I make breakfast formula for him and eggs and bacon for me.
I firstly feed zee and after some time let him hold the bottle himself after I'm sure he is holding it well I turn on the baby monitor to see Eli still sleeping. That baby sure loves his sleep.
I turn toward the stove and finish putting the last piece of bacon on the plate.
I bring everything to the table doing all this whilst holding zee.
Just as I am about to put him in his high chair I hear my sweet angel Eli start to cry I take Zach from his highchair and make my way quickly but carefully toward the nursery to check on Eli.
As I enter the nursery I put Zach gently on the play mat, and walk to Eli's crib to see him smiling gently at me.

I take him out of the crib and sit with him in the rocking chair right in front of Zach's play mat.
As I sit I gently feed him.

After Eli finishes with his formula I put him next to Zach and they immediately start playing together which brings a smile to my face. I sit in the rocking chair to realise soon after I start to cry.
through blurry eyes, I look at the both feeling heartbroken yet again as to why I deserve such angel as them.

I can't be a wimp anymore this is a new start I take both of my babies in my arms and rock them to sleep as they were starting to cry I already bathed them this morning. as I rock them slowly to sleep I hear the front door open to hear Becky saying she came to talk about something so I don't oppose to that I make sure Eli and zee are both properly asleep, then I leave to go downstairs. I go slowly downstairs to hear both Becky and brad both whispering about something and to my surprise, it was about my ex-mate. 

I stay in my place a bit longer than after I hear enough I reveal myself. Which I surprise them both that they stay with their mouths open. They were discussing how my ex-mate is still looking for me and there is a  ransom for me and my children that whoever brings me home will get a load of money.

Becky: Lil how much did you hear

me: as far as the ransom is there anything else

Becky: that's what we came here to tell you. you know who has turned the whole werewolf community upside down you know. everyone is scared and willing to take you by force to him just to make him stop you know. do you remember when you lost your wolf? Well, when that happened he lost his marbles and started to attack everyone and that didn't end well. 

me: If he didn't reject, use me and then further humiliated me three times I would have been glad to go back and help him but because of him not only had lost hope in a mate again that's because my wolf died even if she didn't like me in the first place i also have to bare with the loss.

Becky: I guess that means there is no way your gonna help with him, are you?

me: Of course not!!!

brad: Lillah! its not just consirnimg you now but also your children as well....!!!!

Thats the first time i heard brad so angry and frustrated.

me: ....... then what do you suggest i .... do ..... about you know him!!!...
Brad im scared not only for myself but mainly for my children!!!!!!  what if he does something to them or....or....me and then i cant be there to protect them you have to realise now im no werewolf anymore ... im ... just a human now. And i dont what my children to grow up like i did it was terrible terrifying the most worst thing you can think of and i had no one.
my mother despised me for what my father did ..sniffle... never thought i was only an innocent child she'd beat me lock me up starve me and only because of what my father did to me. Then when i was 5 years old she was fed up of my siblings  always complaining about me she throw me out at 5 years of age ... *full on crying* .... then a wolf picked me up on their territory and brought me to their alpha there i was made an omega .. my wolf never spoke to me not once the first time was when i was pregnant and throughout the pregnancy i would hear a little bit from her and after i gave birth i just lost a part of me ad that was her..
the pack abused a 5 year old girl a baby for what..... nearly 15 years... now that im free i have to help him last time i checked i aint no wolf anymore so it aint problem no more what did the werewolves do for me or...or...or you brad nothing not a thing and we still have to be the better poeple and still help those who hurt and abused us no thanks..*crying*...

All throughout my speech i couldnt stop the tears from falling all Becky could do was hold me.

they expect me to help the poeple who left me abused me that didnt care they expect me to well i dont i won't they can forget about it.

all through the night Becky stayed with me and brad took the sofa at least i have these two to rely on without them i wouldn't make it alone im really thankful i found them.

like that i fell asleep but obviously before that i went to check up on my angels changing their diapers  thankfully they werent fussy and were very tired for some reasons and giving them a kiss on their foreheads and went back to bed.

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