I am 17 years old. And as of right now I have two crushes that will last me eternity.
One formed in grade nine. My first exciting school Romance.
It was far from that really, he was a very close friend of mine, and I feel into a deep liking for him.
He took to realizing that and honestly I think he liked me back.
We flirted throughout the year till things suddenly became awkward.
It was hard to explain. But for the next three years I was still very much into him.
I told myself I loved him.
There was one other boy.
I met him in the summer and I've never clicked so well with a guy, or anyone really. I spent all of August constantly hanging out with him until he got a girlfriend.
He told me he liked me, we were almost a thing and then one of his forever crushes confessed to liking him.
I understood. If the first guy had told me he liked me I would drop everything to be with him.
There are certain people like that.
I can see and accept this now but at the time I was heartbroken. I could only see myself with him.
We were best friends, we were more. But his forever crush was in the way.
In my twisted mind I thought I was prettier, smarter, funnier, and more interesting than her. It was really me trying to still search for what was once there.
We are still good friends me and these crushes.
I would still drop everything to love them again.
