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Ever since the butterfly was drawn, Jenn hadn't cut again. But Nina has been saying even more worse comments towards Jenn. Jenn tried really hard to not cut the butterfly, but one day Jenn just lost it. She didn't know what to do, other than to cut. That's also when she decided that she wanted to commit suicide by hanging herself.
Sad huh? But what's even sadder is the fact that she thought nobody would miss her. When in reality, everyone would. So, that was Jennifer's final decision? To kill herself? Yup. So she searched through the entire house, looking for a rope and a place to hang it. Jenn decided to do a video. She searched through her dresser and found a recorder. She set it on her desk and hit record.
She sighs and begins. "Hi guys. If you found this, keep watching. So, uh, I'm having a really rough time with my life right now. I began to cut and this is how bad it got," she says, showing her scars. "I wanna say sorry to my parents and grandparents for everything I have done. Every cut on my wrist, there's a story behind it and that story is a thanking and an apology from me. I feel like, no wait, I know I let you guys down. And to Nina, I'm sorry for whatever did to you. I have no idea why you hate me. But thanks for making me feel like shit. And Court, I killed the butterfly. I wanna say sorry for letting you down as well. Especially you Courtney. I lost you in 7th grade. I love you so much and I'll miss you. Shawn, I've had the biggest crush on you and I have no regrets. I know you're currently dating Nina. But, I wanna tell you that I love you and I mean it more than the world. You were my first real love Shawn. I'm gonna miss you guys because I'm commiting suicide with this simple object," she says, holding up the yellow rope. "For those of you who same that my life is perfect, it's not. My life may seem perfect, but it's not. Suicide is something I have to put up with. It's a disease that I try to run from, but can never seem to get away fast enough. And sometimes, it might just be the answer to all your problems. Suicide is always or never the answer. But in my case, it is and I knew that I'd never run quick enough to escape. It's perfect because nobody is home to see me. I'm pretty sure life will be easier without me here. I love you all and I'll see all of you in heaven. Except for you, Nina. Goodbye," she covered the camera, and uncovered it. "I'll miss you guys." She reached over and hit the record button again to stop the video.
She left the recorder on her dresser and ran outside to her backyard and threw the rope over the thickest branch of the large oak tree. She placed her neck in the loop and whispered one last thing.
"I love you Shawn."
She then lifted her feet off the ground. Her vision became blurry and soon enough her eyes were shut. Jennifer Mandiff is now dead.
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Suicidal
Teen Fiction"My life may seem perfect, but it's not. Suicide is something I have to put up with. It's a disease that I try to run from, but can never seem to get away fast enough. And sometimes, it might just be the answer to all your problems. Suicide is alway...
