Begin Again (A Cameron Dallas and Shawn Mendes fanfic)

Chapter Ten : Pancakes

A.N. I'm dedicating this chapter to @CrazyPineapple_ for being so damn sweet and motivating me with this story so much!

Shawn's arms were not still wrapped around me when I got up. I moaned at the bright sunlight glaring from the window into my tired eyes. I rolled myself over in the empty sheets to see it was about 10:30 on the clock. I rubbed my eyes and say up in the bed to stretch again.

Right as I stood up from the bed I realized that I had a headache. It wasn't to major but strong enough that I was dizzy for a while when I was walking down the stairs to the kitchen. On my way, I was accompanied by the rich smell of chocolate chip pancakes.

"Jolene is that you?" Someone's voice echoed through the kitchen.

"Yeah I'm up," I sat down at the island bar.

"How'd you sleep?" I suddenly saw Shawn appear from the smoke, flipping a pancake, shirtless.

My cheeks went red from remembering last night, "Great," Shawn gave me a smile from my response, "You?"

He didnt hesitate, "Good,"

Good, I thought to myself, good but not great...

As the searing noises from the sizzling bacon died down, footsteps echoed though the hallway again. I turned to see Cameron strutting to the kitchen wearing nothing but boxers.

He extended his arms out as he yawned, "Good morning," His voice stretched and loud, "Was the couch comfortable enough for you Jolene?" He folded his arms on the kitchen island, staring into my eyes.

"Good," I swallowed.

"Good," Cameron smiled at me, "I would have let you sleep in my bed but I was so drunk I didn't even remember changing myself before I crashed out,"

My cheeks flooded red. I saw Shawn glance over at me as I responded with a slightly panicked look. Shawn pursed his lips in a frown, "The pancakes are ready," He said in a slightly different tone.

It didn't take long for everyone to shut up and start eating.

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Thank god we don't have any school today. It was some sort of teacher appreciation day or random holiday that got us Monday, after the wedding, off. Shawn had mentioned it during breakfast before I went upstairs to actually change into something.

As I moved up the stairs, I heard someone moving in pace behind me. I turned to see Cameron, but before I could even speak a word, Cameron had grabbed my hand, dragging me into his room, and shut the door behind him.

I shot a confused look at him, "Cameron what are you doing?"

Cameron started to pace around his room, seeming frustrated. He ran his hands through his hair which I suddenly wanted to touch desperately. He gave me a serious look, "I wasn't that drunk,"

I knitted my eyebrows together, "Okay...look Cameron I don't really know how this involves me but-"

He cut me off, "What I mean is...I know what happened," I paused as he gathered his words together, "I know what happened last night..."

I took a step back. I wasn't necessarily scared as I was confused on why this had effected Cameron so much. He looked like he was on the verge of being a flat out mess.

"You were there and..." His words drifted apart from each other as he pointed to his unmade bed. He looked desperately confused. His breath wasn't steady and he was moving constantly in his room, He stopped to look into my eyes with a slight concern, "Why were you there?"

Now I was at a loss for words, "Cameron...I-"

He shook his head as he moved again, "I finally get all my shit together and you-" He looks at me again. Studying almost, giving me a kindness in his stare that I wouldn't get past. He looked scared. But how was this my fault? Why was he suddenly blaming me? "And you just show up and ruin everything,"

"Me?" I asked in a shocked tone.

Cameron nods back at me.

"And why would the blame for your life suddenly go to me now?" I snapped back.

Cameron rolled his eyes and groaned in frustration, "It always you, don't you see that?"

"Me?" My voice grows slightly, "The girl you never knew whose name you never knew? And suddenly she is drinking the same cheap wine as you and sleeping in the same suite with you? And this girl who you have barely known you choose to blame your unbalanced life on?" I raise an eyebrow.

"Oh come on," Cameron complains, "You're going to act like that? Like nothing happened last night? As if I didn't have a wonderful date just before the night ended and you came and made me fall in love with your stupid eyes all over again?" I didn't dare speak as Cameron yelled, I was surprised Shawn didn't hear over his music blasting through the kitchen as he washed dishes, "You don't think I've been avoiding those eyes since I've met you?"

Everything fell silent. I was up against the wall of Cameron's room as he leered over me in a angry rant. Our chests were nearly touching as our eyes were so close to each other. I swallowed. His eyes were angry and clouded with frustration, I didn't dare look away.

"Last night," His voice was calmer but still stern, "I wanted you to kiss me Jolene," My eyes scattered from his eyes to his lips, "I wanted to kiss you,"

His eyes fell to my lips too. I could feel the hot breath he had against my mouth. My eyes fluttered together. It was only when I saw Cameron lean in when I spoke.

"Cameron," He stopped leaning in, looking into my eyes, "What are you doing?" The room fell silent yet again.I pushed myself off of Cam and left the room without another word.

I shut the door behind me, leaning up against it with my breath scattered. Did that just happen? I felt a flustered expression crawl onto my face. This is crazy. Cameron Dallas. The Cameron Dallas who I went to school with for years. Who I thought was in love with Molly for years. Who I undressed last night...likes me?

I needed to get these thoughts out of my head, so I went back to Shawn's room to start packing my things to leave.

I grabbed my stupid green dress on the floor of Shawn's room when I could tell someone was right behind me. The footsteps were slow and steady, almost like they were scared I would run off.

"Leaving?" It was Shawn.

I pursed my lips as I got my shoes from the corner where I changed. I was still wearing his shirt which smelled like Shawn. I took in his scent for a moment as I breathed in.

"Yeah I-I've just gotta go and-"

"Let's go somewhere," Shawn interjected.

I turned to face him. His smug look and posture looked relaxed. As if he did this all the time.

"What?" I said.

"Let's go somewhere," He repeated, "Today, lets do something fun,"

I gave him a funny confused look. Shawn continued to smile brightly at me however, simply not caring about my judgement.

I rolled my eyes and shifted over so I was leaning on one side, "Okay," I shrugged my shoulders, "Lets go do something,"

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A.N. Ugh I know. WAY too late and WAY too short. I'm so sorry for taking this long but the first week if school sucked for me and I pretty much had no time to write anything! But since I feel so bad I'll give you the hint that something special might be coming up soon!

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