Runners ~A fillie story~

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Finn's POV
I held the broken girl in my arms I can tell she was hurt, she sobbing hard, she calm down a bit, Sadie stood there watching
"Sadie get he some waster" I say she nodded and went, I wanted to ask what happened why she had blood on her mouth? Why she cries so hard, it gaves me pain seeing her like this
"Millie what happened" I asked so softly, she just laid in my arms holding on to me as if I was gonna leave
"Um- at school this kid named j-Jacob he-he" she broke again and I just hummed a sweet low song that I knew well
"Take your time" I say she need to stop holding it in it was hurting her, I could tell it she didn't wanna talk
"I know it hurts, it does but it will get worse if you hold it in millie" I say
"Ok. He pulled me in the closet and tried kissing me so I bite his lip until it started to rip and then I ran into the lunchroom and my friends looked at me as if I was a monster, so I ran out to come home and cut myself" she says she cried in my chest when she said that I just froze.
"Millie. When your dad hits you do you come here and cut yourself" I asked, I could feel her nod
"I don't cry because he's right it's always my fault" she says slowly
"Someone once told me if you think about something hard enough you can make yourself believe anything" I say strongly meaning every word that came out my mouth.
"I don't cry because I can't, it just shows how weak I am, I couldn't let anyone see it not even myself " she says hiding her face in my chest
"Crying doesn't make you any less of a person, it actually makes you stronger then you think" I say
"You wise guy" she chuckled softly I do the same, I kissed the top of her head
"MILLIE ARE YOU OK" I hear multiple foot run up the steps, then all her friends come in stumbling over one another
"Millie" Hailey runs over and sits with us so do the others, they started talking over one another really loud millie starting trembling
"HEY, Everyone calm down millie is ok. Just give her a minute" I say she just held onto me
"I'm fine guys I just need to get away" she says. I like have Millie close to me, she needed some love, and I wanted to give that to her, she was broken girl but I see her as way more then that.

Millie's POV
I need some time alone with him. Finn is the only one that makes me feel safe.
"Hey guys can you give me and Finn a minute. Also close the door behind you please" I say my nose all stuffed, I was still in finn chest, I hear the door close, I sit up from his chest, I looked at the ground, it was awkward silence, I just laughed and cried
"I have held so much back. I need to cut myself again, I don't know why, I just do" I say being so honest
"No you don't. I won't let you" he says I get up and walked to my mirror, looking at my red puffy eyes, and my red nose and cheeks, my smile that held so much pain and regret, Jacob's blood all over my mouth, dry, every crease and cut in my dark low face held pain and tears, I took off my shirt and just left my bra on, I looked at all the black and purple bruises with cuts over them, my skin screamed and cried to be cut. Everything on my body was pale and just skin and bones, cut lapping over more cuts, i looked back into my brown eyes, the held that devilish grin, it soon left with illness in every tear that fell out of my brown eye, the smile that creeped on my face when I was feeling pain, the smile that held Jacob's blood, the smile that I held when I missed someone,the smile I put on my face when to cover the cuts and suffering. Everything is aways my fault
"I JUST WANNA CUT MY FUCKING FACE OFF" I shout, in the mirror,
"I just wanna take it away, all I see is pain. Everything is my fault." I say sobbing I see finn get up and stand behind me, and looked at me in the mirror
"All I see is a young beautiful girl That went through so much, that went though something that she shouldn't have, I see a strong girl who just needs love. None of this is your fault millie." he says wrapping his arms around me, he took off his sweater that I gave him and slipped it over me but before he did, he put his hand over my bruises and looked at me
"You are beautiful. everywhere. inside and out" he say now slipping on the shirt and looked at me his deep chocolate eyes held warmth and tenderness, I need him, the safety in his arms mad me not want to cut myself, made me not want let go of him, he was the one that gave me a real smile and I love him for that
"Thank you finn" I say as I put my head on his chest, he just kissed the top of my head and lifted me, his hands under my thigh, I kept my arms around his neck as he picked me up and just listen to his sweet heart beat, it played a song with every movement, he just held me, my legs wrapped around his waist, he walked around the bathroom, with me and just calmed me, it was weird that he held me but it was soothing to me, it was like I was a little baby that was trying not to sleep, but he was so warm that I did, with smile. I need you finn. We were alone together.