Long Drop
The pain
The shame
The never ending blame
The house is burning
The toxic learning
Why won't it stop hurting
Finally after almost 2 decades
I finally found a place that keeps the pain at bay
I turn the soil
To distract me from the inner turmoil
I've should've known better than to think that it would last
Everything ends up like the destruction of my past
Why do I have to be so daft?
To think that I could ever escape its wrath
Before all I used to wish for was happiness
But I finally realize that something about me is
That happiness is something I'll probably never achieve
So now all I long for is peace
How do I get from here to "there"?
I've looked for answers everywhere
I constantly think about giving up
Doesn't this pain ever stop?
My lungs feel like they have no air
My cheeks don't have room for another tear
I pull back another skin's layer
Just trying to find my release somewhere
But now I know how to get to "there"...
A place where my lungs will have air to spare
A place where the pain will finally stop
I call this paradise the Long Drop
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PoetryThese are some poems I wrote about experiences I had with people in my life. These are my "fuck you" letters. I love feedback!
