Study Buddy// NamJin ( Slow updates)

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Namjoon got home much later then he wanted seeing as it was almost one in the morning. He walked to the kitchen to get some water only to see Jin left a plate of food out and a soda for him with a sticky note placed on top.

*Get clothes out dryer*

Namjoon couldn't help but laugh at that before unwrapping his food and frowning. "That boy, he never listens to me when it comes to food"- The purple haired boy said this before going to warm his food up, trying not to be so loud so he wouldn't wake up his lover. He quickly finished eating and took his clothes out the dryer then walked upstairs and showered changing into his pjs then slowly getting into bed with Jin who he hugged to his chest making the younger stir in his sleep before slightly opening his eyes and looking up at his lover.

"Did you eat?"

"Mhm, go back to sleep babe I didn't mean to wake you"

Jin just yawned in response while burying his face in the elders neck slowly drifting back to sleep.

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Jin woke up early the next morning since his stomach felt weird making the brunette frown as he got out of bed and went to bathroom to pee only to see that it was red when he wiped making his eyes widen and quickly walk out the bathroom and shaking Namjoon awake who sat up once seeing his lovers worried face.

"What's wrong babe?"

"I think there is something wrong with the baby I used the bathroom and there was blood"- Jin said this as Namjoon's eyes widened fearing he already knew what was wrong as he quickly brushed his teeth then rushed Jin to the hospital which luckily wasn't super busy so they got into a room quickly, the doctor asked Jin a few questions then came to the sad conclusion that he had miscarried the baby. He couldn't believe what he was hearing as tears streamed down his face while Namjoon hugged him tightly. The doctors leaving them alone for a bit before the couple decided to leave and head back home.

Neither of them said a word Namjoon just held his lovers hand while driving them back home. They got home as Jin walked upstairs not wanting to be bothered right now. Namjoon was gonna comfort him but decided to just leave the younger alone for little bit as he sat on the couch running a hand through his hair. He could hear Jin crying upstairs making him stand and walk up there, going into his and Jin's room where he saw said boy curled in a ball making his lover sigh and walk over taking him into his arms and hugging him to his chest which the Younger leaned into.

"It's my fault our baby died"- Jin cried as Namjoon hugged him tighter

"You know better then anyone that that is not true"

"Then why did I lose my baby Namjoon? You weren't the one carrying it so you tell me!"

The older went silent at this he didn't have an explanation no one ever really did when it came to miscarriage it was just to sad for an explanation. 

"I don't know just don't blame yourself please, you did nothing wrong"- Namjoon said as the brunette scoffed

"Why? Are you worried that I'll become depressed again and start cutting myself or Jump off the balcony again?"- Jin said while pulling away from his lovers touch and holding himself. "Well news flash my depression never went away and I doubt it ever will. Soon enough my bad thoughts are gonna come back and I'll end up going to therapy again!"

Namjoon knew Jin was just upset but he couldn't believe what he was hearing, the whole jumping incident and everything else made the older very very upset and the brunette knew that.

"Seokjin! Don't say that! Ever! I really do try you know! I try to help you through everything babe but you clearly don't need the help"

The younger flinched once the older raised his voice and realized what he said. "No no- I-I'm sorry Joon I don't know what came over me, I swear I didn't mean to say that, I-i just need to be alone right now Kay?"

Namjoon sighed obviously frustrated as he walked out their room going to clear his mind. While Jin sat on the bed regretting what he said to his lover, Namjoon absolutely despised bringing up that event he was afraid to lose Jin and the younger seemed to forget that since he wasn't used to being given so much love from a single person other then his grandmother who he barely remembered.
The brunette stood and walked downstairs to find Namjoon to apologize again he deeply regretted saying such things to someone who loved him so dearly. He found the older in the living room pacing back and forth obviously trying to clear his mind as Jin hesitated before walking over and back hugging his lover, hugging him tightly while burying his face.

"I'm really really sorry for what I said I really really didn't mean a single word that came out my mouth"- Jin mumbled before hearing a deep sigh and feeling Namjoon pull his hands away making the younger give up hope before being pulled into a tight hug.

"You know I love you and I really can't lose you right?"- Namjoon asked softly as Jin nodded while unburying his face and looking up at his lover

"I love you to joonie,way to much"

Namjoon just smiled at that while pecking the younger's lips while they continued hugging each other.

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