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Hey guys. So this is another poem. Please leave comments and let me know how this poem is. Happy reading!
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A girl's mind is unpredictable.
So is a girl herself.
She is mysterious.
More than a chamber,
Less than the world.

She loves a fool,
And pretends to be one.
Gives him her heart and
Herself
To play with.

Dies in the act,
For ever,
But alive as empty cage.
Waiting for it's canary with heart.

She wants to sleep.
Wants to break free from the spell he casted that never rebounded.

He left her.
In the worst way.
But then why could she feel him?
In her very bone,
very pulse,
very heart beat,
In Every moment?
He left her.
But he never left.
Why couldn't he go?
Go away, from her?

Been long, but why could she still feel him?
The feeling of his hot breathe on her neck,
The loving abyss of rose kiss on her forehead that she now wants to forget.
Why couldn't this vanish?
Why couldn't the warmth of his protecting hug that kept her from the roots of the dark forest of sadness disappear?
Just like he did.

Those arms are for some other girl now.
He found someone he thought deserved the light,
the light she needed.
Now that he left, the root take her and darkness welcomes her, taking her by the hand.
Can't fight without the will.
She ceedes to it. And as gentle as the darkness could be,
It never leaves.

She wants to sleep.
Wants to forget herself.
How could she live the personality he got attracted to?
Everything about her reminded of him.
She couldn't take it.
Couldn't anymore.

Its so much to take now.
The pricking pain of her heart
Now made her numb.
Any softness didn't had a place in her heart.
Every breathe,
Every move,
Every second hurt.
How? How come he left? Was it her that drove him away?
Or was it just him?
How come he left? Yet never left her?

Every smile
Every look
Every word
That came out of her mouth was just fake now.
The pain had made her personality so numb, so
Isolated
Even the real smiles never reached her.
She had taught herself to believe that the pain is not real, to pretend,
She couldn't differentiate between pain and joy.
Maybe there was no border left.
Everything now went without borders.
All a shade of gray.
A numbing gray.
She didn't know herself anymore.

Now her heart stops,
She sleeps.
And stays gentle
Forever.

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Hey guys, what do you think of this poem?
Do you think it did justice in voicing her mind?
Is there anything that you would like to change or add or share?
Do you think that even if he returns, she should go to him?

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