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Expressions - Patton

This was requested by ArashiNoRhapsody

How would you feel if you couldn't express yourself? Pretty hard to imagine right. Well not for me (y/n) Sanders. It's hard to fit in with the other sides when you are part of Anxiety himself. Social Anxiety to be precise.

I am Virgils younger sister, for better or for worse and I have trouble expressing myself. I could never quite master the whole concept of it, whenever I try its like my face doesn't want to commit. So here I am with a chalkboard and some dumb kids cards with facial expressions on them. It isn't ideal but there's not much else I can do.

I don't like the other sides to feel pity on me because if it, at least my inability to show emotion comes in handy there, the can't tell if I'm sad. Anyhow enough about my issues.

End to first diary entry...

I closed my diary and placed it under my bed in a purple tartan shoe box. I knew virgil couldn't find it there, he's always been scared of finding one of my bras accidentally. I sighed and made my way down the hall toward the stairs, I had only taken a few steps before I noticed I forgot my facial expression cards. I turned back to see Virgil holding them as he raised an eyebrow at me. Quickly taking them from me, I flicked through and held up a smile.

"Thanks Virgil" I said.

"You really need to stop forgetting these, and you should at least try and show emotion. Please try stormy."

"I will virg, it's just... hard" I said holding up a sad smile.

It isn't as if I've never tried to show emotion, I'm just not motivated. Everything is so mediocre to me.

"Hey (y/n), how are you?" Patton said from behind me.

"I'm good pat, same as aways"

Pat could always see through me, no matter how unemotional I was. He was there when I was sad and made me happy, only he could truly get me. He gave a small smirk and his face lit up, oh no, he had an idea.

"Come with me kiddo"

"W-why?" I had never stuttered before... what was my face doing? It moved and it was like the muscles were all weak, but they still managed.

"You'll see" He said grabbing my hand and dragging me to his room. Virgil watched us go with a curious side glance.

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I'm not sure why, but I became very nervous when patton pulled out a mirror and sat me infront of it.

"Patton what's going on?"

"Welcome to expressions class!!!" He cheered excitedly.

Each day he would get me to do facial excersizes infront of the mirror to mimic the different facial expressions and each day we grew closer. The other sides started to notice my improvement and before long I was just as expressive as everyone else. I was suppised to be happy but I was more sad than anything else.

Today was the last class, I wasnt sure what to say to Patton but in the end neither one of us spoke. As I shut the door to his room behind me, he walked over and kissed me. I knew we had grown close, I was certainly falling for him. I just never imagined he'd fall for me too.

He had helped me see myslef in an expressive light and for that, I had fallen in love with him.

He pulled away to stare at me, eyes seaching for some kind of expression. Then he saw it, the glimmer in my eyes and the rosey blush of my cheeks. All he did was smile as he leaned in for one another kiss.....