You Are Not Ugly

BEAUTIFUL

When I was in the ninth grade, i was in the colorguard.

i guess you could say i was done. again.

I marched with the marching band and i tried to keep my grades up. I went back to being unnoticed by my middle school popular friends, due to the fact that high school was so much  bigger than my middle school world. But the truth of the matter is that no one cared. No one cared if you were popular, or not. No one cared if you were a looser or if you had bad grades, you were just you. Everyone hated being in the hell hole we spent over 6 hours in everyday, but it was probably the best thing that has ever happened to us. it made me think about the world and it's state of being true. i realized that when you hurt you hurt, but you will eventually feel better, and be happy.
I guess High school makes you get your shit together, and no one will care enough if you hate the fact that you aren't popular. In the four years that you have, the only thing that will make you the best you can be is yourself. There is so much to learn and see, but coming from a 16 year old writing this, i know i have a lot more to see. To be honest i think i know a lot. i forced myself to grow up so fast, and realize that yes, i could look at all the bad things in my life, and ignore the amazingly great things, like friendship. i wish i could have told my seventh grade self that no one would care if i had frizzy hair, small eyes, or was lost. I know that most people say "16 year olds dont know shit" and i get that. I don't know anything about politics, a job, buying a house, or paying for gas or what to do as a career to support my family. Don't get me started on College.

But i know how to be happy with myself, and to be a 16 year old saying that.... Well most 16 year olds can't. Most of the world doesn't know how to be happy and to be one of the many few, im so lucky.
I'm so blessed and undeserving to even be in the place im at now. Middle School to my Junior year of highschool might not seem like a big step, but in those years, fighting, i came out to know what happiness, and what love is. I'm not saying that im perfect or that i haven't made mistakes in high school. Still trying to find yourself as an individual while you're growing is OK.
Not being popular is OK
Finding and falling out of love, or quitting your job to do something else is OK
Switching your major, getting caught, being in the LGBT community, being your choice of religion is 100%, magically, perfectly and underwhelmingly OK. Living as yourself and loving each other with all of your heart is key. and i wish i would have known that in middle school. Knowing that you are a human being that messes up makes you a better you.
Encouraging people to see, and to hear, and to feel, and believing that you are beautiful no matter what anybody says, is key to life.
You have to choose to be kind and loving.
You have to choose to make the world a better place. Weather it be by not calling someone else ugly, or weak. Or smiling at someone and telling people that everything is going to be ok.
No matter what everything will be ok, you have to fight be happy, even though we shouldn't have too. Thats life.

You are not ugly, or stupid, weak, perfect, beautiful, sad or happy.

YOU are YOU
And that makes you invincible.