Springing hearts

Trails

RECAP :We decide to sleep, not knowing if we will ever talk again or if it's those " one night talks" where you talk one night and never talk again. But ya, that was the night I will remember forever.
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March 17
5 pm

This was needless to say, one of the happiest days of my life. I was so happy the whole day just because what happened last night. I texted her " hey what's up" cause like I really wanted to talk to her again. And ya, she replied really fast! And we start talking again. I swear I've never had so much fun talking to someone like this before. I felt like leaving what I'm doing and just talk to her and be in my " happy place " I've never have felt as loved as she did." What did I deserve to be with her? What did I do" I text my best friend again and she says that I should get with her or something because I find her nice and perfect.

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Days pass by and I swear to god, every day is worth now. All the time her and I spent. I talked to her cousin, Lucy. It was rlly fuckinf great. I started catching feeling for her after 5 days which was fucking surprising. She lives thousands of miles away, we aiant even same age, same culture. But yet we are attached to each other. We start calling each other cute names like " baby, baby girl , daddy" umm ya... some of y'all might think it's too fast but like i had no problem with it. I talked to her every day for atleast like 5 hours or 7 hours. The first week was like the most important week. We started falling in love... she admitted falling in love in the 8th day or something. That night... " hey I think I've started to have feelings ..."
" what?"
" I've started to have feelings .." she says
I was so fucking confused and I didn't know what to do I swear... no girl has ever said it to me.
" we spent so much time with each other I started to catch feelings and falling in love with you" she says
I could feel the truthfulness behind her text...
but idk what I was thinking but i replied
" no fuckifn way "
She wrote a whole fuckifn paragraph explaining exactly how she was feeling and what she wanted me to know.
" I've found you more and more better. I've been attached to you. You're so perfect. The the best thing ever happend to me ..." ( there was more but I don't remember )
I reply "AWWWW THATS SO SWEEET💕"
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I know what yorue thinking ... this dude did not just say that. A girl opening up and he calls her sweet. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY! I was so confused and I didn't k ow how to answer and how to tell her that I don't feel the same way like I fuckinf care about her and have feelings for her but like didn't want to start a relationship with her.. also because my family is very against relationship and it is culturally unethical to have a girlfriend for me.
I really didn't think she had feelings for me.. but now I knew she truly did.. I say " sorry but I don't feel the same way..." I said while I was crying because I wanted her but I knew we just couldn't be... like look bruh, she lives so far away, I'm different cultures, I can't have a gf and she's not my age like I just was in denial... she said " oh ok"
" I understand "
As I tear up cause I know that she's also
Crying herself and I really broke her heart... I didn't know how to express how I was feeling....