"First love" [jirose ff]

chapter 18: nothing to me

It's happening.. I'm not gonna believe in love anymore.. Even thought it was my first love more like first end. Guy are sucks. I hate him such a slut. I will never.. Ever trust him anymore.. I hate him..

8.a.m.

Rosé  POV

I was sleeping when suddenly I heard someone knocking my door and yelling. I  took a look and it was Jennie.. Maybe she worried because last time I'm locked myself in my room.. And I did it again this time.

"What you want?" I said being irritated

"Chae I know you depressed but why you must lock yourself in your room?!" Jennie said worried

"Just left already.. " I sigh.

"No! Until you open this door!" She yell.

"JENNIE!!" I yell and she shock.. Both of us in silence.

"What's the point?" I said and my tears begin to fall.

"Just left already.. You making things getting more worst.." I said and wipe my tears.

"If that's you want so.." Jennie sigh

"But remember chae.. " Jennie took a deep breath

"How long you gonna be like this? How long you must to pretend like all of it was fine? How long.. You must hurt yourself? " She said and left.. That's word stuck in my head for a moment..

"How long?.." I smile and it's begin to fade away.. I threw myself on bed and look at clock..

"Should I go to work?" I said looking at the clock...

"Just forget about it hoseok must be crazy when he seeing me" I sigh and looked away..

"Then.. What I'm going to do?" I said to myself

"Look's like I just need to get things straight to the point huh?" I said getting up from bed and begin to took a shower.. The water feels warm just like a warm tears fallen from my cheeks..  After taking a bath I'm dressing myself up and get ready to go outside.. I hope jennie really left.. I open the door and there is no sign of people. I close the door and get to downstairs when I seeing jennie sitting on sofa.

"CHAE!" She yell. I sigh and about to going to upstairs again when suddenly she said something.

"Where are you going?" She said

"Are you gonna locked up yourself in that pity room again?!" She begin to mad I sigh.

"I'm gonna go taking some fresh air" I said and left her.

"Wait-chae" She was about to saying something but I'm not heard it. As soon I get outside from the house I taking a long deep breath.

"So this is how supposed air feel?" I said and begin to walk around.

"Should I visit cafe?" I ask to myself

"Nah, I'm just gonna making things feel more worst" I said and begin to walk again when suddenly I didn't realize that I  was already standing in front of cafe.

"I think I  just gonna look around for a bit" I sigh and get in to the cafe.

"Welcome" The worker greetings me and when suddenly his smile fade away.

"CHAE?!" Hoseok yell.

"Guessing you never see human before?" I said

"What are you doing here?! I mean.." Hoseok sigh

"Have a sit" He said and I sat down. He keep staring at me.. And it's uncomfortable

"What is it?" I said in annoying way