Baby Blue Eyes

Wishing I could see his baby blue eyes

                   It had been 4 days since he had gone I often looked out my widow to see if maybe just maybe he would be standing there in his window smirking at me, but not once was he there and every time I looked it became more real for me. Every time I looked and his truck was sitting in the  same place every time I looked and his dog was out side with no one to play with her. Every time I looked and saw his dad sitting in his truck crying after work before he would go into his home and put a fake face on for his wife. Every time it killed me to think that this was true and I was really living in this world without him. 

                    I sat down on the edge of my bed looking over at my black flats and black dress laying on my bed. I was not ready for today and I would never be I missed Bobby so much my chest hurt to thinking about him. I laid back on my bed and looked at the ceiling wishing I could escape this reality that everything could go back to normal. My mom came up in my room to get me and I stood up trying not to cry I wanted to be strong for his parents I needed to be this is harder on them then it will be on me. I looked over at the flooded piece of paper on my desk  I picked it up Rain and three little hearts were written  on the front  I took a deep breath in and unfolded it. 

                      Dear Little Rain

                                      If you are reading this I should already be gone, unless you're a cheat and you opened it before. I just want you to know that you make me smile all time every thing you do I smile about when I was over sea and couldn't talk to you it killed me. I would go to be wondering how you were doing I wish I could just pick up the phone and call you. I still can't forget  when you were in third grade and I was in 6 you punched that kid in the face because he took the pencil you gave me. I knew from then on you would be my best friend you always had a mean lil fire in you. You always new how to make someone feel needed or wanted I think that's one thing I love about you there was never a boring day with you. I think the hardest thing was having to leave when I graduated and the only reason I didn't tell you bye is because I didn't have it in me I was scared honestly. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you more than you will ever know and I know I'm gone now but I want you to know that you are beautiful and I want you to move on and get a husband and have beautiful like you.  I love you Rainy Mae White  never forget that.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     Love Bobby Young 

Tears feel from my cheeks I had felt like this for a long time now and I wished I could tell him that but I couldn't tell him that now it was to late. My heart felt heave and it was hard to breath I just wanted to see his baby blue eyes one more time that's all I ask for.