your POV
it has been 3 months since i came home now i was alot better my treatment started 2 months ago i was making alot progress now i could walk a lil bit on crutches but not much bcz only a lil bit of work can make me feel dizzy.
i have been spending most of my time at home bcz i had therapy session twice a week.
Today i was free which mean whole day sitting on this bed until harry comes home he had been really supporting.
He has been staying home all this time but i convince him that i am fine now and he should get back to studio.
i decided to go outside on the balcony i move my legs to the side of bed it was still a lil hard and i took a hold of my crutches and push my self up to stand i have never did this before alone harry was always beside me incase i lose balance or i get tired and can't walk anymore.
I struggled to move my leg forward but finally i move forward a lil and i lose balance and fell down bumping my head on the bed sidetable
I touch my forehead and fortunately
there was no blood i tried to get up but could not i was helpless tears well up in my eyes i lay there for a while sniffling and not being able to move bcz my whole right side was throbbing in pain.
i heard footsteps reaching the door i look up to see who it was and i was ashamed and relieved both at the sametime as i saw harry walking in.
his eyes glued to his phone screen he entered in room and put his phone back in his pocket and his eyes scan the room before they notice me on the floor he run over to me and pick me up gently.
"Oh my silly girl what have you done "he asked gently laying me in bed i could not even answer him and pull him down with me crying in his chest.
"hey hey whats wrong is something hurting i can call the doctor"he asked worriedly before sitting down and pulling me on his lap and began to rub my legs slowly.
"i was bo_bored and i-i tho -thought i would go..."sniffels" to balcony b-but when i st-stood up and took a step"i paused to looked at him before continuing" I fell down bum-bumping my head on-on the bed sidetable and-and now"i sniffled before saying "my head hurts and so does my whole right side"i fninshed telling him sniffling now and than.
"aww baby why did not you call me i would have come home hmm"he said pulling me close.
"i did not wanted to bother you bcz you just started working again this week"i said looking down at my hands.
he put his finger under my chin and made me look at him
"you could never be a bother to me you are the love of my life you are my number one priority and you are like this bcz of me i am responsible for all of this i can't do anything to make it up to you i can't change it but i can promise to never hurt you in my whole life again and even if i spent my whole life being your slave i will still not make up for what i have cause and plz forgive me i know you have not forgiven me yet i am not expecting you to be but i will try till my last breath to get you to forgive me bcz i love you so much"he said sincerely and kissing my forehead.
"But you just got Back to work I I nit call you home because than everyone will think I am ruining your career by keeping you always busy with me" i said looking at him with tired eyes.
"You my silly darling don't ever think like that again because if you say that again or even think than I will punish you" he said sternly causing me to gasp looking at him and my mind flashed back the scenarios of why I was being punished and my heart beat increased and my hands began to shake no and my brain was froze I felt like I was back there being punished. Punish you that was all repeating again and again in my head.
Harry was saying something but I could not register it he was looking at me but I could noy understand anything...
He crushed me to his chest I tried ti push him away but his grip did not loosened I thrashed against him but he just held me mumbled something in my ear as I was now a sobbing mess.
"Calm down it's okay baby you are safe"he mumbled slowly rubbing my back now.
"You are home nobody will hurt you see it's me"he said pulling away a little to look in my eyes.
He pointed his finger at room.
"It's our room baby we are home we are safe no one is going to hurt you"he spoke slowly trying to get me to understand.
Harry's POV:
She looked around and than at me with tears brimming her already red eyes.
I kissed her forehead pulling her to me as she laid her head on my shoulder and wrap her arms around my waist.
"Please don't leave me again"she said with gut wrenching sob and I could not help the tears that flowed down my cheeks as I pulled her impossibly close while kissing her head repeatedly.
"Never again baby I swear I would never let anything bad happen to you"i said nuzzling my face in to her hairs.
She just clunged to me.
I moved back so my back rests against headboard.
And adjust her in my lap.
I took her hand in mine and kissed her knuckles.
I looked at her hand and saw a few Marks on her arm.
I rubbed her arm with one hand and with the other I rubbed her legs.
I pinch her leg to which she winced.
It feels good that she could feel touch on her legs again.
It was most hurtful feeling when she could not feel them.
But it also brought mood swings as one moment if she was happy the very next she would become extremely sad when she tried to follow me around or tried to move away and coul not.
"You like touching my legs more than I do"she said looking at my hand which was rubbing her legs.
"Yes it feels amazing you can feel my touch on them and mostly you can feel them now you can love them and not just see them as a part of yourself on which you have no control"i said kissing her nose.
I really wanted to kiss her lips but I can't because I don't think she is that comfortable yet.
"I really really love you"i added a few minutes later.
She moved back and looked at me with her round big eyes with so much innocency that I wanted to crush her to me and keep her forever in my arms close to my heart.
