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scream
/skriːm/
verb
1.
give a long, loud, piercing cry or cries expressing extreme emotion or pain.
"they could hear him screaming in pain"
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Grayson's pov:
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I felt James grip my side as I heard Ethan shuffle out of the room.
Maybe they did care.
I hugged James back , his familiar sweet scent filled my nostrils.
I almost forgot about my friends. My best friends.
James began to pull away a little, but I still clung to him very tightly.
"Grayson?" He whispered.
I didn't want to let go.
I was terrified he was gonna leave.
I didn't want to be alone.
I really don't want to be alone
"Grayson? What's going?" James said , I could tell he was confused.
I clung to him tighter, I needed love
I wasn't letting go.
It was like everything was hitting me at once. All this built up emotion and self hatred.
It was all coming out now.
"Don't go , please don't go, please" I grip on to James again.
He was gonna leave I could tell.
No please don't.
I kept telling myself he was trying to leave. That they all were trying to.
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James' pov:
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Grayson gripped at me tightly and I was almost scared he was going to crush me.
He was muttering to himself about people leaving.
"Grayson I'm not leaving okay?" I reassured him.
He was trembling more now.
I was scared now.
I didn't know what to do.
"I'm- hav-ing a-a— pan-ic-a-a-a" He croaked out.
A panic attack, that's what this was.
you can do this James.
"It's okay Gray, can you breathe with me?" I tried to help him.
He began to cry now.
"Don't leave-e pl-please!!!" He sobbed into me , clinging very tightly.
"Okay Gray , I just need to you let go for a second okay?" I wasn't sure I could handle his weight on my small frame.
I felt like I was being crushed.
"I'm trying to help you , okay?" I say , gently patting his back.
I hear Ethan come back in room.
"Oh fuck , shit I should have stayed , I'm sorry!!" He rushes over and lifts Grayson off me.
I watch Ethan closely trying to take in his methods of calming Gray down.
Grayson was in hysterics now, I had never seen him cry like this.
His body was curled up , as he lay on his side gripping his hair tightly with his hands.
"Grayson! Listen to me please okay?!" Ethan raises his voice.
Grayson was gasping for air now.
My stomach sunk.
I wanted to help but I was clueless.
I looked around his room and decided to tidy away some of the mess while Ethan tried to calm him down.
I was trying to be somewhat productive and helpful.
"Can you open up the window a little?" Ethan turned towards me.
I walked over to the window and unlatched it.
A small breeze brushed against my skin.
I turned back around, Grayson was lying on his back now with Ethan pinning him down gently.
Grayson howled in pain now.
It was a heart broken cry.
The kind that makes a persons voice break.
The one that holds the pain in.
The one that made my heart drop.
His cry's slowly became croaks.
I sat on the bed next to Ethan now.
"Now we breathe okay?" Ethan gripped his brothers hand.
Grayson followed Ethan's breaths, which became slower.
"I'm sorry" Gray whispers.
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A/N : sorry for the slow updates
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desolation ; grayson dolan
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