hiraeth | seulrene (COMPLETED)

six

6|

She always made mistakes or choices and she's very good at that. For how she mistakenly put salt instead of sugar in a cake that she baked for Seulgi's birthday but Seulgi still ate them and told her that it was her favorite gift she received Joohyun's heartaches and she doesn't know why that every time she remembers that memory it breaks her.

It breaks her to see Seulgi smiling and being grateful just because Joohyun remembered its birthday.

Lies. Joohyun always lies.

Joohyun made a lot... like kissing and seeing other people or sleeping with them despite being in a supposed-to-be happy relationship with Seulgi.

Joohyun is a cheater but at the end of every fight and misunderstanding Joohyun will run and hug Seulgi and Seulgi will hug her back and let the sin begin all over again.

That is how terrible Joohyun is but she doesn't know where to go when she is lost and the only way she knows to follow is the path that is shining and brightening. It was Seulgi.

Joohyun, Bae Joohyun doesn't know what she wants in life. A toxic person who always wanted to ruin things and people finally found a match.

Seulgi loves her dearly and deeply.

Joohyun is not a kid and not a teenager anymore who can just go and play life like she was young, wild, and free but Bae Joohyun felt tired from running and being welcomed again.

She became tired of thinking about other things than herself. One day she cried about how she badly treated Seulgi and realized so many things.

She can't continue anymore.

Seriousness and maturity. Maybe Joohyun is afraid of that all along.

Scared of true commitment.

It was tiring for Joohyun's inner demon who always wanted to be something else. Something liberated and not walled or caged. Something hard to describe and understand.

Seulgi becomes the natural thing in Joohyun's life, and Seulgi is starting to become a permanent marker.

Seulgi is now the usual thing in Joohyun's life and she is starting to feel okay about that.

Seulgi is the candy and rainbows in Joohyun's dark castle and she is afraid that her name Bae Joohyun will be nothing if Kang Seulgi is not around and not part of her life.

The chaos that Joohyun doesn't know how to fix.

Her heart is beating so loudly when Seulgi smiles, dances, and does anything Seulgi does. Like a virus that spreads to Joohyun's soul and all it does is make her heart fasten in its phase and draw lines with pastel color and vibrancy.

Joohyun is afraid.

That kind of life is not what she planned in the first place when she decided to make Seulgi part of her life.

She learned to love and Joohyun's inner self hated it.