𝐷𝑂𝐿𝐴𝑁 𝑇𝑊𝐼𝑁𝑆 𝐼𝑀𝐴𝐺𝐼𝑁𝐸𝑆

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warning: soft / sad
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ethan sits on the floor with his back against the wall, his hands roughly yank at his roots, a river of tears falling down his face. he whimpers as the cool air of the night sneaks into his window, wrapping his arms around his torso. he felt weak, his mind spinning, and body shaking uncontrollably.

you walk into the room with a robe wrapped around your body hair out and frizzy not caring what you looked like, a pretty smile on your face. yet when you see ethan in the corner of the room sobbing, moving back and fourth you frown and start to worry.

"hey...ethan. what's wrong-talk to me." he stared down at the ground with wide eyes, his body still not staying still. you notice his breath increasing every minute, his hand was clenching his shirt where his heart was located. you were so confused on what was going on. ethan couldn't find the words to answer you, he was freaking out and you had no idea why.

you try to take his hand, but it was freezing. you look over to the window and hurriedly run towards it. you slam it shut and go back to your boyfriend wrapping him in your arms.

"take a deep breath and try to speak to me, okay?" you kindly talk into his ear while kissing the top of his head, his hair falling in front of his beautiful hazel eyes. he grips the bottom of your shirt and close his eyes, taking slow breaths and mumbling things you couldn't quite make out. until he finally had the strength to formally open his mouth, more and more tears streaming down his pale cheeks.

"i-i...just feel l-like people want so much f-from me," he mewled, his hands sliding under your shirt gripping your waist pulling you closer than before. he cried into your chest trembling like his life was about to end, you were trying your best not to freak out either. you've never been in this situation with ethan, he's always been so happy and cheerful.

his smile so bright and perfect, his laugh you loved so much invading the air, and his i love you's he'd always plant on you out of no where. you wanted to help ethan but you were just shocked. "w-why do p-people w-want so much out of me? i'm j-just a human...baby i-i deserve love. right?"

ethan's gorgeous orbs look up to you making your heart stop for a good minute, his minty breath fanning in your face. you were so lost on this side of ethan, who was hurting him so bad like this? "babe, of course you do. you deserve all the happiness in the world." you softly place your hands on his cheeks, like he was gonna shatter under your gentle touch. he closed his eyes and waits for you to place your lips on his, and you do. the kiss was passionate and not one bit of rushed.

"ethan. baby, you have to tell me what's going on. or i can't help." you say as you force yourself to pull away from his smooth lips. ethan looks down at his fingers fidgeting with them, his eyes were bloodshot from all the crying and his voice was a deep raspy.

"it's just e-everyone on social media are talking about me and gray, saying h-how we're bad p-people and we only do youtube for the money." ethan mumbled, his voice cracking almost on every word he said. ethan never let the hate get to him, because he knew what he was aiming for in his life.

he loved his fans more than anything in this world, except for you of course, but he always proved that he cared. ethan was never one to give into hate comments or rude fan accounts, yet now that he thought about everything he started to lose control over his thoughts. ethan began to put himself down, calling himself names that he knew deep inside weren't true.

stupid, coward, selfish, and worthless...

he was losing his mind. you noticed by how he would mumble those things under his breath, horrible things about himself. "you're not a bad person. stop talking about yourself like that. other than the hate, ethan, you need to worry about the people who love you. your fans who would go to the end of the earth to see you, to hug you, they support you so much." you take ethan's face in your hands again. you can see the beautiful green and brown color that sparkled so bright in his eyes.

"and me. i love you, ethan. more than anything imaginable on this earth. i won't let you tear yourself down like this...i won't."

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sorry this is so short guys i was doing a homework assignment while managing to write this. 💀