Frases

weak

Fragile.

Weak.

It's all I am,

Any small thing that happens around me just fills me with fear. I don't know in which moment did I turn like this.

scared of feelings.

scared of breathing.

scared to loneliness.

scared of changes.

scared of living.

scared even of the things that i used to enjoy.

I don't know when did i turn so weak, so fragile, trully, the only thing that I know is that I actually are.

What would say my five years ago me if she could see in what i have turned, would she be proud of all what i've been through? would she tell me that she was right beeing like she is? would she be scared about her future? would she change just like me before than i did?.

will everything just change from now on next? would it change for worst or for best?

is it normal to live feeling that fear about any event around you? to feel scared and asking yourself everytime, what's next?  what will happen next?

maybe i just worry a lot about something that i shouldn't, maybe it's just some foolish thoughts of mine from a "typical teenager", maybe this doesn't really matters and it's just something that i shouldn't be telling by any way or something stupid, or maybe i'm making a sea from a glass of water.

This is so unproductive.