BASED ON MY TRUE STORY
the unreal ness of your blue eyes
and the fakeness of my "friends",
they don't listen for my real happiness
when it was you but you don't listen when i
tell you that I'm so fucking sorry.
you don't believe me after I've told you
that what she did was wrong and
that she's ruined what's made me happy.
but happiness is drained and replaced with a toxic drug and is taken down with alcohol.
the face is cleaned with tears and wiped with
dry hair.
the anxiety and depressions strangling
me.
fake smile and laughs to cover
what's really going on deep inside.
but what's really going on that's hurting
is that your not listening to me about how
truly how fucking sorry i am.
now the alcohol and drugs online
hookups and empty love making and
emotions all I can really feel is hatred.
dear self
try to find someone who will
really love you and you don't have
to hide it
