Kids In The Dark

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WARNING LEAVE BOOK NOW IF YOU DON'T LIKE SUICIDAL STUFF BECAUSE FROM HERE ON IT GETS VERY BAD

CRYSTAL POV

It was time. The rope hung. I stood out the note on the floor infront of me. I stood on the chair and tied the rope around my neck. I was are sure it would hold. There was like ten nails holding the rope. And I knotted the rope well so I wouldn't fall. I made sure it was around my neck tight and tied it with a million knots. Nothing would get me down from here. Nobody would anyways. I looked around seeing my blood. I looked at the chair to see more or my blood and the terrible wood that would give me splinters everytime I sat there. I had my sweater off showing my scars. I have my shirt rolled up a bit to show my stomach. I had cut the word suicide into my stomach a few weeks ago. I liked that pain. You could see the huge scars it left. I smiled knowing I'd be gone soon enough. I looked at my note. Dad would rip it up before even looking at the first sentence. Oh well. This is what life brought me to. I stepped off the chair kicking it away as I did. I took my last breath. (this is her thoughts. crystal is already dead but she is watching) After a few hours, my dad came home. He walked to the basement. And saw me. His face went pail. He shed a tear. Then he started to full on cry. He really did care for me. "I-I am so s-sorry.... I-I c-c-c-can't believe it.... Laura.... I fa-failed...." He whispered. He mentioned mother. But why? He looked at the note and unfolded it carefully. Ihe read out load. "Hi. Whoever finds this, my name is Crystal. I have been abused for years, since mother had passed when I was a child. My dad killed her. Then he abused me. I was almost raped as well. Andy will pay for it someday but I don't care for revenge. I feel like I deserve this sometimes. Like every single thing I have done has been repayed. Dad hurts me for every sin. A-All All I-I-I am is a mistake. F-F-F-F-fa- Father reminds me of that...... Everyday..... I can't read the rest.... It is covered in tears.... Are those mine or hers? I can't believe I did this! I am so stupid! My sweet little girl! I never meant for this! I'm sorry!" He yelled. But it won't help. Im gone. And now, a I see is brightness. And a flash of darkness every so often. "Hello." I heard a voice say. "H-hi?" I responded confused. "Why are you afraid?" It asked me. It sounded like it was coming from all directions. "You are the one who wanted this after all. Are you not happy from this choice?" The voice asked again. It sounds angelic. A woman I think. It's voice is deep but not that much. "I-I don't know what's going on... Who- Who are you?" I asked the angel. "I don't know who I am. Who are you?" It asked me. I thought it would know who I am. "Crystal?" I said questioning my answer. "You seem uncertain. Why is that?" It asked. It seems like it wants a specific answer. "I never really knew who I was. All I know is my name, Crystal." I answered truthfully. "Remember that. Always remember that." It demanded. "Now that you know yourself. Why are you here?" It asked me. "I am here because I hung myself." I answered blankly. I heard a sigh. "And why did you do that?" It asked me. "Because I couldn't take it. I couldn't take the weight of life." I answered realizing I was answering my own questions as well. "Would you ever want to go back?" It said. "I don't know..." I said quietly. "I think you do," it said. I recognized that voice more. "Crystal, dear, remember yourself. And remember me. Now if I send you down, will you promise you will never forget?" It asked. I started to see shapes among the brightness. Stairs. There was a shiny silver gate at the top. And then there was a women walking down the steps. She has brown hair and brown eyes the same color as mine. She was a bit paler than me but almost the same skin tone. She wore a white dress with a golden trim. She had the hood on her head and the dress has long sleeves that go past her hands. She also has wings, with beautiful white feathers. And a gorgeous, sparkling, golden ring floating over her head, her halo. She was an Angel. But she was more than that. "Mom?" I asked, tears filling my eyes. She nodded and smiled. "Yes. I don't want to see you die. So, can I give you another chance down there?" She asked smiling. I nodded. "Anything mom. I will never forget you, or what has just happened." I said smiling. She nodded and walked to the end of the stairs. On the platform I was on. Behind me was more stairs, those ones red, almost black. She got to me and embraced me in a warm hug. "I will bring you another life. Now then, Crystal. I hope I won't have to see you for a long time. Good bye my love," she said. She pulled out a golden heart and put it in my hands. She started walking up the stairs as my vision started blurring. All I saw was golden blurrs. A new life? I hope dad doesn't hurt me when I get back!

Hello! Cliff hanger right!? I thought that ending was cute! But don't worry it will become dark and such again soon! I mean if it gets darker than her hanging herself ... Oh yeah me and garenceshipper are actually planning a lot worse so yeah! Crystal will go through hell in her new lives! Hope you enjoyed! And if you didn't, you really shouldn't have enjoyed actually.... But your opinion not mine (I'm messed up and enjoyed writing that!) So yeah! Cya! ~Kitty!