Kids In The Dark

Looking Back

Layla's POV

I can always remember my past. My name is Layla. I am 23 years old and I am a college drop out. I live with my abusive boyfriend Jake. That is who I am, but who I was is a girl named Crystal. Died at 16 from suicide. Almost raped by a kid in school, abused by my father since I was 7 after mom died. I was given a new life, a second chance, by an Angel. By my mother. I wish she didn't though. Because now I live with my abusive boyfriend, both my parents dead. Everywhere I go people just say, oh there's the emo freak. Wonder how many cuts those sleeves cover. You know what. Those sleeves do cover cuts and bruises and burns. But none are from me. I usually just show them off to the world, but lately Sebastian my boyfriend, had been hurting me more and more. The marks are so bad it hurts to have the sweater on, but whenever I go out and he sees me walking out the door with skin showing he hurts me. He hurts me thinking others will know he's doing this. He's afraid people will know what he does to me. I know he uses me for my body, seeing as I have found him with other women in bed many many times and I can't do anything. They cant either. They don't even know his name most of the time. I hate him so much. But I either am on the streets of with him. Either one is terrible, sometimes I think about just living on the streets, or grabbing my stuff and going to a hotel, or my only friend, Ashlys house. Could stay at either place until I get enough to at least rent a place. Ashly is looking for a roommate. I wonder. Could I just stay with her? I could hide from Sebastian. "Babe, sleep. I need you to be healthy. If you are always tired people might think you are sick and take you to a doctor and see your arms and then I get arrested and then I find you and fucking murder you." He said and then slapped me across the face. "I'm sorry. I can't sleep is all." I said without any expression. "It is three am how can you not sleep!?" He yelled and he punched me. "I'm sorry." I said not really caring. I'm used tot he pain. "You aren't sorry don't lie!" He yelled as he pushed me back onto the bed. "Now, you are going to try to sleep whether you are tired or not. I will let you use your phone to listen to music. Now, call or text anyone and I will hurt you again. But it won't be a punch." He threatened. He checks my phone everytime I use it. Then he clears the history so he knows. But he uses a password so I can't clear it. Why msut he be smart? I listened to the song sweet but pyscho Nightcore and then toxic Nightcore and a bunch of random other songs until sleep took over me.

I woke up to a pain in my shoulder. My eyes fluttered open to see Sebastian sitting next to me with a razor cutting my shoulder. "Shit." I mumbled. "Good morning babe. Now, in have to go to work. I have the cameras remember. Oh and also, go bandage your wounds. You have work later today, I checked your schedule. You better be good. Good bye. I will clean the blood from my hands and off the blade and I will leave. Bye idiot." He said leaving the room. I sat up to see a bunch of marks on my body. He really likes using that razor, especially if its to hurt me.

Well look at that. I finished writing this on Christmas Eve. Wow I am really into the Christmas spirit aren't I! Although I started it a while ago. I finally finished my Garrence book so go check that out! Might not be completely done but still! Hope you enjoyed and if you didn't, if you didn't like it why read it? Cya! ~Kitty

I am here again a week later thinking about this, not the chapter itself or anything just how i have plans for other books, but I also have this one, I know I need to update this while on the other hand I just want to make that FlowerFell fanfic, or Zane~Chan or that other suicide based book (don't ask) and I still have my Undertale book that I haven't finished. I guess I'll just post this and update my Undertale thing, then I'll go and try making the first chapter for those other books I mentioned. Not sure yet. Oh well, but I will still try to convince people to read some books by my friends, go read Baby Of Mine by ugood470, The girl who could make me smile bye garrenceshipper and ugood470, A Garrence Story (Garroth x Laurence) bye garrenceshipper, and I need you now by ugood470. I am always there in the comments so yeah, wanna find my real name it's there! Sometimes I just chat with them there so yeah.... Anyways they are both amazing writers and you guys and gals should really check their stories out and please leave support for them! ~Kitty