Wednesday Afternoons

Chapter Two

I strolled to the front door with a slight skip in my step. I couldn't believe that a boy, a cute boy, actually wanted to talk to me.

So as I go through the door, after unlocked by Callum, I skip down the hallway to my room. Naomi was already in there. This was now going to be the most awkward conversation we have ever had.

Naomi is my twin sister, more though she's my best friend. I can tell her everything, I don't know what she's going to think about this though. It's not like what happened between me and Jack but she knows what happened last time. She's warned me time and time again not to let it happen again but I can't choose who I fall in love with.

When Callum first became a support group leader I started talking to a boy named Jason. He was going to support group way before Callum was the leader. I would wait for Callum every week and Jason would always wait with me. Me and Jason became so close. Admittedly I lost quite a few friends because of him.

I had 3 friends who barely talk to me now because of Jason. I spent every waking moment in communication with Jason. They thought that I was losing sight of what was importance. When I met Jason, I wasn't told this at first, he had 3 months left. Tiffany, Torah and Tia would always tell me that I was wasting my time with him. They would say how they thought I was their best friend and Jason was wasting my time.

I wasn't wasting my time at all, Jason might not have been in my life for long but he taught me so much. I realised that I had so much time and I had all the capability and I was wasting it all. So in a sense I was wasting my time, but not with Jason, Jason just helped me realise this.

Jason had a bucket list, at least 100 things were on this list and he completed nearly all of them. He realised he only had a short time to do a million things that may never turn out right.

In the end it didn't turn out right.

That's the thing about living with anyone with cancer, you know too many dead people. I knew that if I started talking to Jack then the same thing that caused me pain with Jason was going to happen again.

I realised all these facts as my skip gradually slowed back to a walk. Why was I getting so excited about a boy I've known for all of 30 minutes? So I knew that my excitement was for a ridiculous cause, I needed to calm down. I don't want any questions now. People will start getting suspicious.

I end up wondering down the hallway to my room, Naomi was already there. I hop up the few stairs in between our beds and over to the desk at the back of the room. I opened my laptop to use the internet. I clicked on the internet icon a million times for it to still not work.

"We really need a faster connection."

Naomi stated in the attempt to make conversation as though we hadn't anything better to talk about. I could tell she had something to say though, I've known her too long and can tell every detail about her. She didn't say it but that's the point, her lack of interesting conversation shows how she has something more important to say.

"True. We really do"

I replied, unintentionally rhyming at the same time in a very monotone and disinterested way.

"Soooo, how are you?"

This was her cue. Never has she asked that question for any other reason than wanting to receive the same question back.

"Alright, I guess."

I decided not to tell her about Jakon, I knew that it would only irritate her. I would end up with a lecture on how I already made that mistake and how I really should stop being hurt by people who don't wish to hurt me but don't have a choice. I knew it would end up the same way as it did with my old friends.