Silent tears

5. My new friend

I don't understand why the bus seemed to be getting dark. Everything seems to be, fading away..

"Yo Ivan you ok? You seem a lil, ya know, out there in space." Emilio said as he was tapping me on the shoulder.
"Huh? oh ya haha, I'm fine." I put on a fake smile and tried to stay positive.

The bus has finally made it's way to the school and everyone stood up. I just sat there in my sit waiting for everyone to disappear.
Emilio was laughing with his friends and just seem to forget about everything else about mom. But why can't I? Why cant I forget about it and enjoy my day in school were i feel more safe then when I'm at home?

All these questions keep popping into my head and none of them I can answer myself. I just feel like a pebble getting thrown into the ocean and unable to float. I'm just so close to losing my mind.

I got up off my seat and started walking down the bus aisle. It feels like I'm walking down a dark hallway with little lighting. I walked off the the bus and looked for Emilio, but he wasn't in sight. I walked through the school doors trying to ignore Everyone around me.

Since Emilio and I are "8th graders" we had to walk all the way in the back of the school on the second floor. It felt like I've been walking forever just to get to my class. As I was about to walk up the stairs I saw a person struggling with crunches and I felt really bad. I couldn't ignore him and walk away, so I had to help.

"Hey bro, you need help?" The kid looked at me shocked. He didn't think me; Ivan, the popular kid would bother helping.
"I- I- I'm fine! But um, thanks for caring!"
The kid said nervously. I gave him a look and tilted my head "Are you sure about that? You seem to be struggling." The kid sighs. "Well I am struggling a little bit."
"Well then, I'm here to help you! Let me take you to the elevator which is more safer."

I walked him to the elevator, smiling; I was happy with myself for helping another person struggling and didn't say anything.
All we really need is someone there for you who cares and really appreciative.
We walked in the elevator and watched the doors closed.

"Lemme introduce my self haha, I'm ivan whats your name?" I took my hand out of my pocket to shake his hand.
"Im Zion!" he took his hand off the crunch and shook my hand.
"Oh I have you in my classes! How come you sit alone?" I questioned Zion. We got out of the elevator and started to walking towards our class.

"Well you see, I'm known as the nerd boy and gets left out of things." he looked at the ground. I just saw his smile turn upside down. "I'm sorry." I frowned. "Hey, I can sit with you! Well if you want."
"You? sit with me?! Ha that's a good one!"
I gave him a look. A confused look, and Zion gave it back "Wait are your for real?" I nodded my head and said " ya! why wouldn't I ?" "Are you crazy?! your a popular kid! You shouldn't be talking to me in the first place!" "So what? Cause I'm a popular or not i don't care. I don't want you to feel alone. I know how that feels" I mumbled. Zion smiled " thanks man I really appreciate it."

We walked into the class and Zion swings his leg with his crunches and makes it to his sit in the back of the classroom.
I walked in right after him and saw Emilio laughing and siting on the table around his friends and some girls. I rolled my eye and walked in the classroom. I tried ignoring Emilio and walk past him, but he stopped me.