I loved you so much. Baby, you were my everything. You were the greatest thing that had ever happened to me. I was so in love with you. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, I saw a future with you and it would've been a great future. I'm grateful for being with you, despite how I wish it was much longer, though I couldn't hold on any longer.
Please don't feel responsible for this. God for bid, if you feel even the slightest bit of guilt, I'll haunt you. There was nothing you could've done to save me. I was a mess and I was already so depressed and suicidal before you. You did make me happy, so very happy, but that happiness went away as soon as we stopped talking or after we hung out. You tried to make me feel better when I said I was sad, and you were so amazing at cheering me up. Nobody could make me as happy as you did.
The best memory of us I think has to be our first date, when we went to see the fault in our stars. We were holding hands the entire movie, I also had my head on your shoulder and you put your head on me. When we first saw Hazel and Augustus kiss, I told you to kiss me and you responded with "not now," but of course I kept insisting that we should kiss. I kept saying "come here" and you kept coming closer until our noses were touching. I asked if I could kiss you and you finally said yes. I kissed you which last like 5 seconds and that was the greatest kiss of my life. You tasted like peanut butter. It was the beginning of us.
You said that I'd always be your princess, but I can't be anymore. Baby, go find yourself a queen because that's what you deserve! Fall in love with someone else and be happy! I was in love with you, I still am even though I'm not physically there anymore. I'll still always be with you in your heart.
I'm sorry we couldn't get married on the beach or have a honeymoon in Florida like we wanted to, like we planned. We both liked the name Skylar for a girl, but we never figured out a boy name. When you get married to someone else, can you name your daughter Skylar?
These are my final words to you. So I'll say that I love you. Goodbye baby.
