Maybe you should be with a rockstar.

Chapter 2

6:30 in the morning my alarm clock is ringing. I can hear my dad already up. He has always been a hard working man. His mom and dad which would makes them my grandparents came from Mexico. When my dad was 26 he met my mom who was 17 they in love. They had 7 very short years together which include the birth of me, but then my mom passed away of cancer. I was way to young to remember her but I look just like her with my long black hair, my huge brown eyes to my smile. When I got older it was getting harder and harder for my dad to look at me. I guess I really have never gotten love as kid, because life was just to hard for my dad. My dad raised me on his own and still is. I'm 17 now and I'm wondering if I will find love like my parents, I mean yes I have Ben. I know for a fact Ben not my happy ending. I have seen pictures of my mom and dad the way my dad looked at my mom is not the way Ben looks at me. My dad looked at my mom with love, and Ben looks at my with lust."Maria Lily Olivia's get up now!"my dad yells. "Papi it's too early to be alive". I can hear foot steps coming up. "Maria I swear to god if your not up I'm turning your cellphone off" with hearing I get up so fast. I walk behide my dad who has already made breakfast. "'Maria what are the plans for tonight?" My mind spins I can't tell my dad I'm going to a rock show he will lose it. I smile and lie to him "Well can I stay with Tay tonight?" I ask. My dad looks at me for awhile finally saying yes to me. I can't lie to my dad I feel bad all night if I do and I'll end up telling him sometime. "Oh and dad were going to also see a band named pierce the veil". "What do you a band? Are they a Spanish band? Your to young to go see a band" he thinks I'm a baby still. "Dad do I have to remind you at my age mom was already living with you and you guys were in "love" I always fell so bad for using that as an excuse and my dad really doesn't have anyone on his team it's just us two. As my dad gets up to leave for work "Maria you can go to that show tonight. Ok take care of Tay and please take Ben with you guys." I smile so big and run and give him a hug "Thank you Papi" with that my dad leaves for work. I have to say I'm not a fan of pierce the veil there just something that makes me excited to go. At that I texted my cousin Tay telling her I can go and if she can cover for me and tell my dad I'm staying the night. Tay is 23 years old she lives by herself she just got out of a 7 year relationship. My dad has always felt the need for me to take care of her. I always have taken care of her since I was little, even when I was little I always knew she was a lost soul, but she was my lost soul. I hear someone knocking and I know it's Ben. I open the door and Ben smiling at me. "Ben guess what I say" Ben just looks at me. "My dad letting me do to see ptv tonight" Ben laughs "Not even a fan and already calling them ptv" he comes up behind me and give a big hug from behide. I know where this is going. I

turn around and Ben starting to kiss my neck I let out small moans of pleasure. "Lets go up stairs" by the time I could get out of his grip he carried me up the stair. Is it bad that I still feel no love towards Ben. As we lay in my bed I must say I want him in the most unromantic way. I always feel so dirty after we have sex. I always tell myself not to let it get this far because I'll regret it like now. "Maria what's wrong" "nothing Ben just sleepy. Ben looks at me and winks " oh did I ware you out." I just smile. " I'm going to take a shower ok" "let me join you Maria" before he could get in the rest room I run in and lock the door. I get in shower let the hot water hit me and cry my eyes out while "last hope" by Paramore plays.