"Ｉ'ｖｅ ｇｏｔ ｙｏｕ ＣＡＳ, "

CHAPTER - FOURTEEN

The older Winchester thought his heart might explode as his younger brother sobbed in his arms. He didn't cry though... He couldn't- He wanted to stay strong for Cas' sake and to make the young moose think that it would be alright in the end, but in all honesty, he didn't know 

"This is all my fault," He would whisper- over and over again. 

God the guilt that he felt would take him over like jumping in a pool. He was supposed to help the trench-coated man with his depression not make it worse. He couldn't even remember what he had said gosh, looking back on this now it was stupid- he was stupid. 

"Wat happen?" The little moose asked after a while whipping away the tears. 

"Cas is going to be ok," His brother tried to reassure not fully answering his question. 

It came out as a lie though... Because in all honesty, he didn't know what was to happen... No one did. If only he had helped Cas instead of telling him off and realizing that yeah his depression was only worse after everything that had happened.

The blonde-man went to go hug his little brother once again who had managed to get out of his iron grip only for him to flinch away. "Bean," He murmured rubbing his tired red eyes. "I wawnt Cassy," 

The green-eyed man didn't have the ability to say anything though, nothing could escape his lips... He left angry... Angry at himself- angry at their parents for leaving them both at such a young age. 

He was angry that Castiel was the only thing keeping him together and now he might be all gone. He realized that it was the same reversed for the raven-haired man, that he was his everything. Then after he had said those things it had pushed the blue-eyed man to his breaking point. 

To the point that he had nothing really else to live for. 

Which was a total lie, this freaking stupid fucker thinks that it's OK to love Dean as much as he does and just leave him like that. What is this some cheesy fanfic? Ok so maybe the trench-coated man was a little- a lot depressed because of his past and was scared of the monsters that lurked in the night. 

The little moose looked up from his knees, as even against his protests the leather-jacketed man took his hand in his. The little boys hazel eyes shined in the light as they were still glassed with all the tears. 

"I love you Bean," He whispered as his brother made sure to brush his long locks of Disney princess hair from his eyes. 

"I love you too Sammy," 

At one that night after the younger Winchester had long drifted off into sleep not being able to stay awake any longer waiting. The doctor came over and gave Dean a sympathetic look, he knew who the blonde man was because he was the one by the raven-haired man's side up until he couldn't be anymore. 

"Castiel had his stomach pumped... And seems to be ok, other than his suicide watch." He explains with a sigh. 

"When can I see him, doctor?" The green-eyed man asked his green orbs as if pleading for the doctor to just finally let him see his soul-mate. 

"Well... Visiting hours are closed and the only ones that I could possibly let in would be family only-" 

"But we're married," He interrupted thinking fast after seeing it on a TV show once. "Please you have to let me see him," Dean Winchester was never one to plead but at this point he was desperate. 

"Very well," The doctor sighed looking him up and down. "I will let it slide... You do look a little too young," 

"That's flattering doctor," The flannel wearing clad laughed trying to play it off but all it turned out to be very awkward as he was lead to his room.