Ok, so this isn't quite how I envisioned my return.
Not that I really envisioned my disappearance either, but hey.
I don't think I've wanted to be a robot or cybertronian this much since 2016.
So yeah. Things aren't exactly fantastic.
Back in feb, I had a short-lived and emotionally damaging "relationship" that I screwed up cuz it would seem I have some issues. I've been at college, which has been fun other that the overdue work which has been heccin stressful af. My family is in the process of trying to sell our house, which is a little upsetting. My mum got a new job which is great cuz more money, but not so great cuz it's longer hours and over an hour away which might mean moving out of the area once we sell the house. Which in turn means seeing my friends even less. And probably not being able to continue attending my current college which I'm just starting to settle into. Due to all this, I decided to put off going to uni for ANOTHER year, which honestly makes me feel like a garbage failure.
And then there's my most recent relationship with the absolute nicest guy. Which just fell through. No argument or anything, but he didn't feel like he was ready for a relationship. I could tell it was really getting to him, and wasn't good for him, so I can't be angry at him. But I still am upset and a bit angry, and I have nowhere to direct that but back at myself. I know I screwed up, but I don't know that things would have been any different if I hadn't. But yeah. I have some self-worth/self-acceptance issues and issues with letting go, so the prospects aren't looking great for me. We're still friends though, and I'll be damned if I ruin that too. Ultimately, I want what's best for him, and he knows himself best, so I'm trusting him on this.
But yeah.
I've been pretty into Cuphead recently, so that's another fandom to add to the long and ever-growing list.
Idk what the purpose of all this even is, but hey, it exists now.
(also behold the irrelevant long furby above, featuring skele arms)
EDIT: I just wanna cry really. But I also don't really want to feel. And I know I'll feel better, but I guess I just needed to vent somewhere rn.
EDIT: I'm also somewhere between wanting to fill the void with 'x reader' fanfics, and not wanting to see a damn thing about relationships for another 500 years.
