the grave is not the goal, but its where we all end up.
today, i am not afraid of dying. I am afraid of hurting the people that love me and I am afraid of being forgotten. I am mostly afraid of missing out on seeing my favorite people. specifically my significant other. I'm afraid that he could move on easily, after he realizes that he didnt need me that bad to begin with. I'm afraid that everyone would move on and quickly replace me. so I guess in a sense, also afraid to be replaced. I'm easily replaceable. I'm not a unique person. and anyone could easily 1-up me in any way.
do you think a relationship can be both bad and good at the same time? like, if soulmates exist... what if they find each other, and their relationship is bad? wouldnt that be perfect and toxic, simultaneously? and do soulmates even exist? in a religious aspect, I dont think so. but is there a perfect match for each and every person in the world? statistically, yes. most likely anyways. I dont want to belive that there is more than one potential perfect partner for everyone though. I want to believe that there just does exist a perfect potential partner for each person. and the chances of thoze two people finding each other and being together is so slim. so there could be other people that are not perfect, but are very close and compatible. which is what usually happens.
I want to say that the universe knows these things, like which two people belong together. however the universe is not in charge of that. its not that universe knows, its just the simple fact that there is a truth that exists like how religious people believe that their God made things a way for a reason. even if someone never knows the simple truth that exists, still know its out there.
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Captains Log
Non-Fictionlife through the eyes of someone who has so much to say, but isn't sure of how to say it.
