The Other Girl [A Ryden Fic] (Discontinued)

Faux Smile

It was six in the morning and I was getting ready for an interview with MTV. Nowadays, we wake up annoyingly early for interviews and shows. Tonight is our next trip to Kansas, Missouri. We're having our next show there. I heard that Fall Out Boy might be there too since we are in Chicago and Chicago is Fall Out Boy's home. I actually don't mind. Pete Wentz helped us a bunch with our rise to fame and it'll be really nice to see him again. I honestly don't like interviews. I can never seem to be able to make full sentences in them. I'm not Brendon who can tackle any questions with confidence and charm. I usually let him talk but I'm the lead songwriter. People always have questions for me. Good news for me, Brendon knows what goes through my head well enough to answer their questions. Though, he doesn't know me well enough to know that I have a fat crush on him.
Which reminds me of last night. How he took my heart and broke it unknowingly.

I exit my room and head towards the hotel café. As a travelling band, we all have our perks. One of them is free breakfast and I'm a sucker for free things. I thought I was the only band member in the café but oh boy, I was wrong. I saw Spencer and Brendon sitting near the entrance. They were easy to miss. Jon was probably getting high in his room and it was such a Jon thing to do. Most would let him go. Let the man have his fun. I honestly didn't want to see Brendon today. I don't want to tear up. It's just best if I go ahead and sit alone in a separate table.
I proceeded to walk to another table, taking a seat until Spencer called my name.

" Ryan! Why are you sitting all alone? Come here, you big dummy" he said, calling me a dummy for sitting by myself. I hesitated. I eventually made my way to their table. The whole time, I couldn't look Brendon in the eye. Turns out before I came, they were talking about the other girl. I have a feeling that the other girl will be a constant topic popping up. I need to get used to it. I didn't bother ordering anything. I immediately lost appetite when I was invited to sit with the two. Spencer seemed like he was asking Brendon something. He tried to be secretive about it but it's Spencer Smith, he's bad at hiding things.

" Yes he knows about Sarah" Brendon answered simply. Spencer gave me a look. Spencer doesn't know about my confirmed feelings towards Brendon but I did tell him about how I was confused and how I felt warm around him. Spencer knew about my developing crush. This look, I know this look. It's the 'are you okay' look. Brendon knows this look too.

" You two okay?" Brendon asked, taking a sip from his tea. I could tell he was confused. We cannot let him know about my feelings.

" Yeah, everything is peachy" I answered almost immediately. Too quick? Spencer doesn't seem to know about our 'argument' last night. It wasn't an argument but I did leave Brendon hanging on our hangout. He must be upset or worse- confused.
Confused people will find answers. I do not want Brendon Urie to know about my childish crush. I hope that this attraction towards him is just a phase. I want to heal. I want to get back my heart and I want to mend it. Spencer thought that it would be a good idea if I talk to him alone.

" Heyyyyy... I think I gotta check on Jon. Don't want him to get higher" he said before leaving. I'm not suprised he would do such things. After all, I grew up with the guy. Spencer and I started the band, of course I know him like the back of my hand. I snuck a " Spencer, don't you fucking dare" but he let anyway. It took me an awkward second to look Brendon in the eye.

" Brendon, look, I'm sorry for last ni-" I wanted to apologise but he stopped me halfway through my apology.

" I get it, man. You were just shocked I didn't tell you immediately. You're my best friend." He interrupted. He Gabe me a smile. Oh, there it is. The pain. Stupid feelings. I wish I could stab myself in the heart to stop myself from feeling this way. I gave him the realest smile I could muster up.

" I-I'm glad you understand" I replied. He didn't understand. I wanted to cry. Call me a pussy but I really did love him.

He stood up," Well, I think I'm going to go see her. You wanna come?" He asked. I know it's a bad idea to come with your crush to see their new girlfriend/boyfriend but I feel like meeting the other girl. I reluctantly nodded. I couldn't help but say a single word. I could feel my vocal chords tightening. I was going to meet my competition.

•••

We drove to a random bar. This was supposed to be their first date but Brendon brought me as a 'wingman'. I never thought I would be the wingman to the man I loved. The world really did works in off ways. We took a seat. Brendon ordered beer. I didn't want to drink. I wasn't planning on getting drunk and messing up their first date. I may like Brendon; just like Sarah but I'm not an asshole. I know how to win fairly. I will win this tug of war. We waited. I couldn't tell who was more nervous; me or Brendon. Probably me. I was lost in thought until a girl with beautiful blue-grey eyes and obsidian hair approached us. Judging from Brendon's ridiculously dorky smile, she was Sarah Orzechowski; the other girl.

" It's nice to see you again, Brendon." was the first thing that came out of her mouth. She took a seat next to Brendon. My eyes would just follow her movements. I kept a neutral expression. Brendon smiled at her. He completely ignored me when Sarah came into the picture.

" Ditto. You look lovely, Sarah dear" he answered her. He completely changed when he was with the other girl. His demeanor was sweeter. This isn't the true Brendon Boyd Urie. I knew who he was. I understood and accepted who he was. She wishes she could do what I could do. I give out a fake cough to snap Brendon out of his trance. It was successful.

" Uh-" he muttered, turning his attention to me. Sarah did the same. She put on a smile when she looked at me.
" This is my band mate and my best friend, Ryan Ross" he introduced me to Sarah. I put on a faux smile. It didn't even phase her that I was angered whenever I was around her. I should be an actor.

" It's nice to meet you, Ryan. I'm Sarah Orzechowski." she introduced herself. I knew who she was. Brendon talked about her. I haven't heard much but I already know that I don't like her.

Needless to say, after that introduction, Brendon threw me away and gave all his attention to Sarah. I'm not surprised. The man's under her spell. I ordered a drink. An hour became two. The two didn't seem like they want to part ways. I learnt that Sarah was already seeing someone at the time but somehow still had the courage to take Brendon away. She's got balls. After what seemed like forever of talking, the two head to the dancefloor. Journey's Faithfully was playing. They slow danced to the song along with other couples on the dancefloor. I envied her. I mean, Brendon wouldn't be able to see her until seven to eight months after today. I have a feeling he'll run back to Chicago to say 'hi' to the love of his life as soon as the tour ends.

•••

We eventually left. We missed out MTV interview. Spencer and Jon covered us. They answered all the boring questions they had. They really do deserve the 'Best Bandmates of the Year' award. They also knew that Sarah was important to Brendon. I high key wish that I was in Sarah's shoes. Later that night, we left for Kansas for our next show.