Irrational // bnha tododeku //

Frostbite.

               Todoroki tried to live his day without letting his previous... interruption last night bother him too much , but it was hard. His patience thinner than usual , his temper on the edge , but also vulnerable and sensitive. He avoided most of his classmates , sitting nearby to listen to conversations , like normal. He didn't need to make it obvious he was upset over something so childish and selfish. Every look at the happy , unbothered , green-haired dork he took such an attraction too ,and his heart sunk. His face felt warm , but his heart was the contrary , painfully cold , like frostbite after he over-used his quirk. Fuck. Thinking about his quirk only drew his attention to Midoriya further.

                " Uraraka-san?" Midoriya quietly nudged his classmate to catch her attention from Asui. The two girls seemed closer since Bakugo's rescue.

               " Hm , Deku-kun? " She responded all too sweetly , almost sour for Todoroki. He didn't dislike her , but hell how did she always seem  so strong and confident?

               " Can I talk to you for a moment , in private? " He whispered for a little privacy , but clearly with no real urgency. He looked flustered though , a little impatient though that something weighed heavy on him.

             Uraraka's expression softened a bit , nodding in response as she got up , following Midoriya into the kitchen.

             Todoroki convinced himself to shake it off, it was none of his business afterall. But he found himself following quietly , curiously trying to at least catch the subject of their conversation.

             " Uraraka-san , I've been wanting to say something for a while , but something has kind of nudged me forward to say this... " Midoriya gulped , and Todoroki covered his mouth with his icy cold right hand , which seemed to be heating up by the second. " ... I know you and Asui are getting a little closer and I just wanted to get it off my chest- "

             Uraraka giggled. At this point , Todoroki retreated behind the corner , unable to watch if they kissed.

              "Deku-kun.. I know. It's so obvious you like me. " Uraraka audibly nodded. Her small "Hm Hm " of confirmation was another confident thing she did that made her all that much better. " And I think you're great- "

             Todoroki couldn't handle this. He pounded his fist against the wall, startling the teens in the kitchen , and quickly dashed to the common area , his face felt hot , but he managed to hold back whatever he was feeling. Stupid fucking head , always fucking with him like this. He felt trapped as he raced pass the confused bakusquad inhabiting the couch.

            He slammed the bathroom door , locking it as he plugged the sink with a towel rather violently , filling the sink with freezing cold water , only cooling it further with his quirk unintentionally as his hand tightly wrapped around the cold faucet frost laying a thin layer on the water.

           He cursed under his breath , breaking the frost and dipping his face in the water , almost too long before he pulled back , gasping for air and the cold water dripping from his soaked hair, falling into circles on the shoulders of his uniform.

          He punched his fist onto the counter , only rewarded with a sharp pain in his hand , sobbing desperately and he fell to the floor , his fists white-knuckled around his upper arms.. he felt cold. So cold. Vulnerable , but mostly just freezing. The water from his wet hair dripped and leaked down his neck , down his shirt and dripping onto the floor , his legs , or into previously-formed puddles of water from his self-dunk of desperation against a mental breakdown and self-deprecating thoughts.

        After a long silence , he heard a shuffling at the door , like someone getting up from leaning against it. The soft , warm voice was what he thought was the last thing he wanted to hear right now , but the soft , vulnerable response he gave made him realize he needed it more than ever. " Todoroki-kun... it's Midoriya... can... can I come in...? "

          Todoroki gave a choked , gentle laugh , too quiet for the other to hear. Todoroki confused even himself. He kept retreating from nothing , only to welcome that nothing back in again , what it was , he didn't quite want to understand , or maybe he did ,and he just didn't want to accept it. " Yes. "

          Midoriya opened to door nervously , clearly alone. " You've been in here for hours , I was sitting at the door to make sure you were okay.. " When the green-haired boy was serious , his responses were short , his body language and face doing all the speaking for him. " I was worried about you To-"

          " Shouto. " Todoroki interrupted gently , pulling Midoriya into a tight embrace on the floor as the boy closed the door with his foot. " I told you to call me Shouto , Izuku. "

           Midoriya went quiet , only hugging the taller teen without any regret , letting him cry quietly. " I didn't mean to hurt you if I did- "

            " You didn't do anything , Izu-kun. " Shouto sighed, " It's fine. I'm okay. " The two-toned teen pulled away to give his friend a small smile. " There's no reason for me to be hurt anyways , what makes you think you're the reason I'm upset? "

          Izuku opened his mouth to protest , frowning as his eyes read Todoroki's face concerningly , lowering the taller boy's chin to examine his red face and wet hair. He sighed , pulling his friend into his lap , reaching for a towel on the dry part of the counter. He set the towel on Shouto's hair, making a small attempt to dry it for him. " If there's anything I did- "

          " It's nothing , Izuku. " Shouto gently pushed away the smaller teen's hand , looking up at him. " Really , it's chill. Nothing's wrong I just felt a little tempered. "

           Izuku didn't want to pry , so he sighed in defeat , returning his attention to drying Shouto's hair , his other arm lightly around the two-toned teen's waist , holding him near once he'd noticed how he was shivering from the cold water.

  [ just some fluff that i finished today , word count : 1086 , i can only write about 987 words in one period with good grammar and satisfactory details ]