Irrational // bnha tododeku //

Sleepover for two.

             [ midoriya and shouto settle down for a calm night , shouto makes everything sad like always. ]

               " Are you comfortable , Shou-chan..? " Izuku was a little hesitant to call Shouto by the nickname Izuku'd given him , he didn't really know why. His nerved calmed when Shouto responded with a smile and nod. " I-I'm not hurting you am I? "

               Shouto shook his head , pulling Izuku up a little more. The boy settled against Shouto's left side , appreciating the fact that the boy warmed his left a little , keeping both himself and his friend cozy. " You're fine , just- " Shouto chuckled , pulling Izuku's elbow from his side , shifting his body a little , then pulling Izuku's other arm across his chest. "Stop elbowing me in the ribs , Small Might. "

               Izuku gave a small snicker , stiffening for a second before letting his arm rest where Shouto had placed it.

               Shouto's attention was to his phone , Izuku didn't mind , his own attention completely to his laptop that rested in Shouto's lap , moving his arm to change between All-Might content.

[ creatiii.momo ] :
u okay , shou-kun?

                 Shoto never agreed to letting her call him that , they were never really close but he didn't mind. Why she was texting him now , after everyone knew he was cooling off with Midoriya , he did't know.

[ spicypeppermint ] :
yeah. just watching any and all things all-might with izu-kun.
what did you need?

[ creatiii.momo ] :
oh, i'd forgotten about that. it must have slipped my mind when i found your dorm empty.
I was just wondering if you were okay.

[ spicypeppermint ] :
i'm fine.
you didn't need to go to my dorm.
you could have texted me like you are now , Yaoyorozu.

[ creatiii.momo ] :
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ave i upset you , shou-kun?

[ spicypeppermint ] :
no,
i'm just tired.
goodnight Yaoyorozu

            Shouto grumbled as his phone vibrated once again , angrily putting it onto Izuku's bedside table , the slightest bit too aggressive , obvious as Izuku's gaze almost snapped to Shouto concerningly. Shouto shifted , unintentionally pushing Izuku off him. Shouto covered his face sighing.

             Izuku opened his mouth , not expecting Shouto to speak so quickly. " Ever feel trapped inside your own head , feeling like everyone is poking you with a stick like a zoo animal ; like they're cornering you into your own mind whether they know it or not.. "

              Izuku went quiet , sitting up and closing his laptop , pushing it aside as he tried to meet Shouto's dual-colored eyes. He frowned when Shouto rose his head a little , his soft face clearly distraught and tired , like he'd been dragging his thoughts and feelings for a while and they were all only hitting him now.

             " I can't... I can't keep pushing my thoughts into the back of my head , ignoring them Midoriya. " Shouto's voice was low and quiet , and spoke like he expected Izuku to understand what he was refering to. " It's so god damn fucking painful.. denying myself the chance at love simply because I'm afraid of it , or afraid of losing it. I can't keep doing that. " Shouto cursed under his breath. " I can't keep letting what that scumbag of a father did affect my head.. "

             Izuku put his hand gently around Shouto's wrist prying it away with little force. He let go , brushing Shouto's red hair away. His thumb lightly brushed Shouto's scar , the boy slightly flinching from the touch , he hadn't let anyone even get that close without getting physically defensive.

              " Shou-chan.. " Shouto's nickname sounded perfect coming from its respective giver's mouth , his soft voice made it sound like it was supposed to. It was Izuku's nickname for him , his sign of closeness to the two-toned teen , no one else's simple ' Hey how's it going Shou-chan!! ' It was Izuku's ' It's okay Shou-chan.. it's only me. No fake smiles or prying for self-preservation. Just me , Shou-chan. '

              Shouto couldn't take it. Izuku's gently touch on his face , oblivious to how intimate it was. Shouto let out a heavy breath and quickly pulled the smaller teen close by his shoulders , giving him a quick kiss on the lips. He might have just fucked everything up between them , but he needed Izuku to know how he felt , and he knew for a fact he couldn't express it through words without worsening the situation and upsetting himself. It felt like a sharp pain in his stomach and a sour taste in his mouth. But it soothed when he realized that Izuku wasn't tensed up in his hands , he was relaxed , leaning into it.

              Shit.

[ last italics is both of them thinking at the same time skeet ]