Broken hearts|Beronica

5.

Bettys POV:

The next morning is painful, the first thing I feel when I wake up is a brutally ache in my head. I don't want to open my eyes already, so I lie there with my eyes closed, but the pain in my head is to strong.

Suddenly I remember that it's Tuesday and open my eyes shocked and it feels like a bomb explodes in my head, I put my hand on my forehead and look around in the room, but I don't see what I thought I would see. I am lying in Veronicas room, I love her room, it's always so welcoming. I see a clock and it's already 2 pm, wow we slept long. She's still asleep and I try to think through the pain I have. Then it pops into my mind: Oh yeah, we were at the party yesterday.

I try to remember something, but everything seems blurry and my head tries to stops me, so I just lie there looking at Veronica and thinking. I think she looks so cute when she's sleeping, without her makeup on, her normal lip color and her hair always sat perfectly, even in the morning. I love the way we always cuddle up to each other, when we sleep at the same place, her warm, beautiful body against mine, always under the same blanket. The best thing you can wake up to, with your best friend. She has a strand of hair on her face, so I wipe it carefully out of her face, so that she doesn't wake up.

I smile the whole time looking at her, but then I realize I don't really have clothes on and my smile fades. Wait, we didn't? Or did we? She wouldn't? Or would she? Okay, now I really started to panic, I try to say quiet, but my breathing gets much faster until Veronica wakes up. She is still in a sleepy haze and looks at me, not really realizing anything. Until she rubs her eyes and looks and me again. „Hey B, what's happening? Is everything okay?", she says caring and a little bit scared.

„It's just, eh- what... eh- why?", I say with a shaky voice, It's normal during a panic attack, it isn't a big, but it still is one. I had several panic attacks before, it isn't really unnormal. I have to take pills against it, but i stopped, I don't want to because I hate taking medicaments. The panic attacks stopped a while ago, but in this moment I really don't now what to do, or what happened. I think alcohol is not this good to me.

She looks at me shocked and confused until she gets what I mean. „Betty, everything is alright. We didn't have sex, really. Trust me.", she says. I trust her, I always do. After a short time and with her words my breathing got more normal again, still a little bit fast, but not that bad.

„Sorry you had to see this and sorry I thought you'd do something like this.", I say and I mean it. Veronica would never do something like this, I know her. She is honestly one of the good heartest persons I know. She doesn't open up for other people this fast, it took her a while to do it for me, but I feel like I know everything about her, and at the same time nothing. She really is a mystery, but I love her the way she is.

„It's okay." she says and cuddles closer to me, „How do you feel?". „In all honest, my head hurts very much.", I say and she giggles a little bit and I punch her lightly. „Hey it's not funny.", I say, but giggle with her. With her free hand she grabs something out of her nightstand. „Here are some pills against the headache.", she says sweet and caring, and gives me a bottle of water. Like I said, I normally hate pills, but the pain is really hard so I take one and drink it with the water, and say thank you.

„What happened yesterday V? I don't really remember a thing, since I drank, I have a big blackout.", I ask her giggling a little bit and she looks at me shocked, „Please tell me.", I say stroking her hair and looking in her eyes. I don't know what happened but Veronicas expression don't seem like it was good.

„Eh, We were at the party and talked with a few people, but I think you remember that. After we drank more, we danced a little bit together until you ran to the toilet and I followed you. And well you threw up.", she says giggling and I am bit embarrassed already, but I don't say anything because I know Veronica haven't finishes yet. „I gave you water and a bubblegum and helped you. And well I don't know what to call it, but eh, we had something like a moment, and yeah, you wanted to kiss me... But a girl came in and threw up...", she continued with a shaky voice and I get more embarrassed with every word, „So, we got outside and talked about it and yeah.", then she says nothing. "What did we say V?", I ask still embarrassed.

"You wanted to kiss me and I said you shouldn't do this, because you'll not remember and I will remember, and that we just broke up with our boyfriends and yeah. We talked about our kiss at the tryouts, short after that we got home.", but then she stops like it was everything. There is more, I can see it in her look. I am ashamed and shocked, but I have to find out, "And what happened after that V?", I stutter out. "Oh god, I wish you would remember, just try to remember please. I hope it's just the headache and you'll remember it soon.", she says and continues after a little while, "So we got home and the tension was, I don't know... uncomfortable. I- eh got changed and laid down next to you, eh and you was, um kind of staring at me... we talked and...?"

„And what?", I ask her. „You kissed me... and, I- I'm not gonna deny that I kissed you back, because I did. But then at our second kiss you wanted more and I said I couldn't and well you got pissed and took of your clothes. That's why you slept like that...", she says, stuttering the whole time, I can understand why she does, because I do the same, "What, we kissed?". I stand up and take my clothes on. "I'm sorry B, I know I had to stop you.", she says apologetic. "It's okay, eh it's not your fault. B-but I have to go. I need fresh air. See you tomorrow.", I say as I take my things and go to her bedroom door. "Please, let's talk about it.", her voice was so small and sad.

"I-I can't, sorry.", is the last thing I say before I turn around one last time and go out of the door. I almost run out of the Pembroke and outside. I suddenly find myself at a place me and V found around a month ago, we didn't mean to find something. We just wanted to go outside, because I had a fight with my parents earlier that day, I don't remember about what, but it's normal, we fight often, but V is always there for me and this day we found it. Many people would say it isn't special, but to us it is.

It was just a bank under a tree, it's summer so the tree is green at the time. From this bank you could see a small part of Riverdale, it is prettiest in the night, when you can see the whole lightning. Since we found it we sat there many times and talked about everything and nothing or we were just there to be with each other. No one except us knows this place, well maybe someone saw it, but to no one it has a special meaning, so it's our little place, just to chill and be alone, well alone together.

This is the first time I'm here without V and it just doesn't feel right. I don't know why I ran away from her, I'm such a coward, I should've talked to her, now it's just complicated between us. I don't wanna fight, I need her. She is the only person who's always there for me and who I can trust with everything, but now I messed up.

It is almost 4 pm when I look at my phone again. 6 missed calls from V and 4 messages, in which she wrote that I shouldn't ignore her and I should pick up, and that we need to talk. But I can't talk right now, I can't even think right. I don't answer her and, fuck I feel so bad,I love her, she is my best friend, and I act like, I don't even know. And I don't know what to do any longer and this place makes me feel more sad, I can't lose her.

By the way, the pain in my head is still there, but through the whole story from yesterday I just forgot about it a little bit, but now I feel it again. I have to go somewhere, I can't just stay here all the time, it makes me feel so depressed, so I go for a little walk.

But suddenly I find myself in front of Jughead's trailer. I just look at it, maybe a little to long, until Jughead comes out and looks at me confused. „Eh, Betty... What are you doing here?", he asks me and I just stand there, I don't know what to say. Why am I even here? I need to say something, oh god why am I so bad at lying? „Betty?".

„Eh, um I'm sorry, I eh just wanna talk maybe?", I say, but honestly I don't. He was such an ass to me, and I don't even know, how and why I got here. I just wanna think, about Veronica and the whole thing, but now I'm standing here, in front of Jughead.

He got a little closer to me. „I know what this is about...", he says concerned. Wait... What does he mean? Maybe he knows about Veronica and me... Just act natural, „You do?". He looks at me, „Of course. Okay, I know you're sad and I have an explanation why I broke up.", oh he thinks it's about the break up, okay, i have to act like it is.

I just look at him sad and confused as he continues...

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