Broken hearts|Beronica

7.

Veronicas POV:

I run out of the locker room, away from her. I can't handle that, I can't handle her and Jughead. Thinking about them and how happy they're together, makes me feel sick. Sad. and Broken.

I run into the girls bathroom, into one toilet and lock the door. I sit down on the closed toilet, put my head into my hand and cry my heart out.

I don't know how long I sit there, until I suddenly hear a knock on the door and a small, caring voice say,"Hey Veronica, I saw you running in here, is everything okay?"

"Yeah, Toni, Just please go.", I say as I start to cry again. I wish I could be home, alone, but I'm in school. With so many people around, they all have a chance to see me like this and I hate it, but I can't stop my tears.

This is already the second time I have a breakdown at school, the first one was when Kevin told me about Ethels Dad and how he tried to kill himself. Because of my father. God, I never hated him more. But I hated myself, because I love him and trusted him. He is an awful human being, but he's still my Dad. The. I had Betty, she ran after me and just embraced me, that's everything I needed, that's everything I need. Her.

"Veronica, please open the door.", she says sweet. I think for a while, everything is silence, probably Toni already thinks it's never gonna happen, until I open the door, stand up and go to her. She hugs me tight and I'm sobbing in her shirt.

"I'm so sorry you have to see this and for crying in you shirt.", I say stuttering, "I'm really sorry.". But she says nothing, she just holds me more tight.

"What happened to you?", she asks. I try to hold me back from crying any longer, look at her and swipe my tears away. I get out of her embrace and she takes both of my hands. She looks at me caring and sad. "I know we never had the best contact, but you can tell me, I'm here for you Veronica. And I would never tell anyone. Not even Cheryl."

"It's Betty.", I say as a tear falls out of my eye again. I'm thinking about how I can explain to her. How Toni will react. I don't even really know her, but somehow I have the feeling I can trust her. I mean even Cheryl trusts her and Cheryl trusts nobody. Well almost nobody.  "What about her?", she asks as I stand there saying nothing, thinking.

"It's a long story...", I say but she just looks at me and says, "I have time, it's just school.". I nod and look at her, "I think you heard or saw what happened Monday with Jughead and Archie,", I say and she nods with a sorry full expression in her eyes, as I continue, "Later that day I was at a party with Betty, just to spend time together and forget about the boys.", I say as I smile sadly.

"Betty got totally drunk and also threw up, but then she wanted... oh god, she wanted to kiss me.", I say as the tears starts to stream out of me, realizing what even happened and Toni looks at me a little bit shocked, but says nothing, so I continue, "We talked about it and she really wanted it, but I said no, because she was so utterly drunk. Then we got home and there was a weird tension and we... kissed...", that's when Toni looks at me with her eyes wide open.

„Wait, you and Betty kissed?", she asks me and I just nod, knowing how crazy this is.

„So, the next day she ran away, well it's Betty, I thought this would happen. But it hurts. And now... now she's back together with Jughead. She ran to him when she got away from me... And she didn't even tell me until today", I say angry and painful, "And I don't know why this hurts so much, it shouldn't, she is my best friend, I should be happy for her."

Toni looks at me confused, not knowing what to say until, "You're sure she is just a best friend to you?", she asks me unsure and carefully.

„I never even thought about that, about her, in that way. It's just, we're best friends and were right from the beginning. When I saw her it was like it just hit me. I need her in my life, like we are gonna be best friends.", I say thinking about the first time I met her, in Pops with Archie. She had this thing, that I just wanted to get to know, like a mystery. „I can't lose her."

"And what if this feeling wasn't just about being best friends with her, but if you had that feeling about more than friends?", she asks almost shy.

"Oh god, I don't know. It's so much to think about right know.", I say, trying to think of what she just said. What if it's true? I can't even think about it, „Thank you for helping me Toni, but I think I have to go now.", and then I go away, out of the bathroom. I swipe my tears away one last time and try to move on with the day. It's gonna be okay Veronica, you've been through worse times.

I run to my class, already much to late. I open the door, „I am sorry that I'm too late, my alarm didn't ring.", I say to my teacher. „It's okay, just take a seat.", she says and as it is meant to be, is the only free seat next to Betty. I don't look at her, I just sit down and try to listen to what the teacher has to say.

But I can't.

I feel her looking at me, so I look at her. But then she quickly looks away. Not realizing it I continue to look at her while thinking.

What if Toni is right? She can't be. I can't lose B. Betty is never going to like me back, she's straight and she would never love someone like me. I mean she's perfect and I'm just, I don't know, a mean Bitch from New York, who loves her dad even though he is an asshole. And she's just...

She is everything I need right now, but she's not here. Well she is, it's like, she's so close, but at the same time far away. She looks at me again and I shyly look away, feeling my cheeks go red. Did I just stare at her the whole the time?

I look down at my papers, that I put out when I took the seat. Painting something on it, without hope. I have to do something about this situation and I'm going to.

(Edited)

(What the hell? 600 reads! Thank you so much❤️ Sorry it always takes me so long to update, I always have a friend to read it before I publish and we totally forgot it😅)