Of Band-Aids and Bullet wounds

a.

When we were in 6th grade
I kissed you
In the closet
Before school let out
Briefly and briskly
I can see your face in that moment
The way you smiled after it was all said and done
I can't believe I made that first move
Even though I know I did

When we were in 7th grade you and I danced together at our formal
Slow and steady
And I didn't know anything about love
But I loved you
I know I did

When we were in 8th grade
You played a lot of games
You wanted my best friend
And then you kissed my other best friend
And then you dated some random girl
And then some other girl
And then you moved away
And I hated you
I know I did

When we were in 9th grade
We kept in contact
You were always one phone call away
I got drunk at a party and did all the wrong things with all the wrong people
And you made me feel like a slut for it
We stopped talking
And I missed you to death
I know I did

When we were in 10th grade
We said I love you at the end of every phone call
I placed my heart in your hand
I allowed myself to fall even deeper
And then you found another girl
A crazy girl
Who I warned you about
And then we didn't talk again
And I wanted you to burn
I know I did

When were in 11th grade
You took my virginity
With naked bodies and heavy breaths
You took my innocence
And then you found another girl
And I cried for days
And didn't feel right for weeks
And you ruined me
And It was over
I know it was