✩ celebrate → moba

3; bye

august 21st.
2018.
2 weeks until school, matt moved.

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"matt, i know we weren't that close but i'm really gonna miss you."

"i'm gonna miss you too, russell. i had a really good summer with you guys! i promise i'll text you, just gotta ask ian for your number."

"ahh,, yeah. okay. i'll be sure to text back right away!"

a small giggle comes out his mouth, he looks around before he gives me that look. he has to leave now.

"goodbye, russell"
he sighs out, i can see he doesn't want to leave.

"bye bye,,"

he walks off with his luggage and gets into his parents car. i watch them drive off and feel myself get numb.
i don't know why i feel so strongly for this.
he was really an extraordinary boy.
i hope he messages me sometime soon.

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september 1st.
2018.

he hasn't talked to me since.
i knew this would've been coming, never had a stable friendship once.
not even my closest friends put that much effort into me.
it's alright though, i've gotten more used to it as times gone on.
maybe i shouldn't push people away so much or avoid them.
i don't know, but i really miss that boys face.