Unconditional

Letting Go

    At times I try not to question wether or not       
    Love was really there,
Because if so, why did it abandon us? or if not us        
why just you?
Where did all that love go? Where are all those pretty promises you sold me ?
I guess it was my fault for not paying attention.
Maybe somewhere there were signs I just refused to acknowledge.
Who know's ? Right?
You could rarely be honest with yourself,
So why should I expect you to be honest with me?
Right?
I cried. I begged. I compromised. I negotiated.
I left my pride to dry,
I cried for far too long
And as I gather my thoughts here tonight,
In love & in peace
Here lies :
The past,
The pain,
The embarrassment,
The long nights of overthinking,
The subliminal statuses,
The feeling of crawling back to check if you've changed,
(Because the truth is, you never will)
Waiting for you to wake up & realize what you've lost,
Waiting for you to find me & tell me how much you really didn't mean it,
Waiting for you to realize what I was really worth.
May This Rest In Peace
May you find love
May flowers grow where the pain is,
May the sun shine where the words left unsaid reside.